Over the last couple of months I struggled with my eating habits and I bounced around with the same 3-4 pounds. Then one day I was at home and I'd been eating a cookie when I thought,"Wow why am I even eating this? I don't even want it." Then I thought well, I've already eaten half, I might as well finish. And then I realized,"Duh there is no reason I have to eat the other half of the calories." Then I tossed it out.
Since then I have stuck to my program, and worked hard. I'm on my 3rd mini goal, which is lose 15 lbs in 6 weeks. I have 3.5 weeks left. I'm not quite on track but I'm still down 5.2 pounds so far in the last 2.5 weeks. I hope to catch up. At the end of my goal my target weight is 184.4lbs.
For anyone that has weight they want to lose, I promise it is worth it! I am down a total of 22.2 lbs and I feel so great! Yes there have been trying moments, and times that it was difficult to stick to my allowed foods instead of eat what everyone else was. But on Friday when I've lost even more weight it will be completely worth every bite I didn't take!
Stats
Mini Goal-9.8 lbs to go
Mini goal Loss- 5.2
Total Loss 22.2!
Total to Lose: 48.6!
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Wednesday, April 13, 2011
New plans and stress
My program has changed yet again! I now only weigh in once per week, on Friday mornings. Then on Friday I have a "cheat" day. I get to eat whatever I want to. At first this idea scared me a little, but I decided to trust my coach and give it a shot. Last Friday was my first "cheat"day, and I have not weighed in yet to find out the results. On Saturday and Sunday I will continue to do my detox which will really help me boost my fat burning.
This week has been crazy though, I spent 14+ hours at the hospital waiting room while my Father-In-Law had a triple by pass done. It was nerve wracking, but he did well! Of course we all know what hospital food is like, and the hours of waiting. I did bring a few things to snack on, whole grain muffins, sugar free candy, fruit. But our exploration of the cafeteria and food court was hugely disappointing. It was far too expensive. We ended up at pizza hut for dinner as it was a short walk away. I had a salad, 1 slice of pizza, 1 bread stick, and 1 scoop of pasta. WAY too much starch! But it is all that was available at the time. I am glad I did not over indulge. We did make an order for take out, my husband a p'zone and myself a chicken milano pasta. A couple of hours later I was hungry again and had a few bites. Most of it is now in my freezer waiting for lunch on Friday.
Unfortunately I have Irritable Bowel Syndrome. And for me that is extremely sensitive to stress, and when stressed food. I was feeling fine until we saw my Father-In-Law at the Cardiac ICU for the first time. He was doing so good, still asleep. But he looked so much better. Thats when I started to relax and began to feel the affects of my stress. I didn't realize I had been so anxious. I knew he would be okay eventually, so I wasn't really scared. However, I did not know what that journey would look like, or what he would have to go through to get to the point of being okay. Step 1 was making it through surgery with no complications! I am happy to say that is complete! Step 2 is recovery in the hospital. Admittedly I still feel some anxiety over that, but I have faith we will have him home on Sunday. I'm sure I will deal with a little of my IBS then as well. Step 3 will be his long term recovery, which I am trying not to worry about.
To add to my stress last weekend my apartment flooded due to another tenants leaky hot water heater. We were unable to get the carpet dry enough and now it is moldy. I am really concerned about my husbands allergies while we are waiting to have it replaced. But we have a great landlord and I'm sure it will be done by the end of this week.
So, to make up for my IBS and the food I ate yesterday I am going on my detox, just for today. I am starting to feel better already. And I'm looking forward to weigh in on Friday!
This week has been crazy though, I spent 14+ hours at the hospital waiting room while my Father-In-Law had a triple by pass done. It was nerve wracking, but he did well! Of course we all know what hospital food is like, and the hours of waiting. I did bring a few things to snack on, whole grain muffins, sugar free candy, fruit. But our exploration of the cafeteria and food court was hugely disappointing. It was far too expensive. We ended up at pizza hut for dinner as it was a short walk away. I had a salad, 1 slice of pizza, 1 bread stick, and 1 scoop of pasta. WAY too much starch! But it is all that was available at the time. I am glad I did not over indulge. We did make an order for take out, my husband a p'zone and myself a chicken milano pasta. A couple of hours later I was hungry again and had a few bites. Most of it is now in my freezer waiting for lunch on Friday.
Unfortunately I have Irritable Bowel Syndrome. And for me that is extremely sensitive to stress, and when stressed food. I was feeling fine until we saw my Father-In-Law at the Cardiac ICU for the first time. He was doing so good, still asleep. But he looked so much better. Thats when I started to relax and began to feel the affects of my stress. I didn't realize I had been so anxious. I knew he would be okay eventually, so I wasn't really scared. However, I did not know what that journey would look like, or what he would have to go through to get to the point of being okay. Step 1 was making it through surgery with no complications! I am happy to say that is complete! Step 2 is recovery in the hospital. Admittedly I still feel some anxiety over that, but I have faith we will have him home on Sunday. I'm sure I will deal with a little of my IBS then as well. Step 3 will be his long term recovery, which I am trying not to worry about.
To add to my stress last weekend my apartment flooded due to another tenants leaky hot water heater. We were unable to get the carpet dry enough and now it is moldy. I am really concerned about my husbands allergies while we are waiting to have it replaced. But we have a great landlord and I'm sure it will be done by the end of this week.
So, to make up for my IBS and the food I ate yesterday I am going on my detox, just for today. I am starting to feel better already. And I'm looking forward to weigh in on Friday!
Monday, April 4, 2011
Mini Goal 2 Report 5
This week was, well weird. I wasn't feeling well from Tuesday to Friday, and for whatever reason I'm one of those people who gets sick and gains weight. I didn't eat much, certainly not as much as I'm used to, but it messed with me anyway. I gained 1.6 pounds from Monday to Friday. I wasn't very happy about it, but I was determined to do something about it.
Over the weekend I did my 2 day detox as usual. I can't say that I overly enjoy doing the detox. I get a lot more hungry and I'm very tired of baked chicken. But over all it went very well. On Saturday I walked to the grocery store and did my shopping, and walked home with the groceries. It's not that bad, I push the cart home, and then it gets taken back to the store later. I managed to eat all 3 cucumbers that I bought, and some of the broccoli. I still can't make myself eat plain celery, so that is still in my fridge. I do have plans for the coming weekend's detox though. I bought a decent sized pork tenderloin, which I will season on Friday evening and put in the Crockpot over night. It will be a nice change to the dry baked chicken. I also plan to by myself a new flavour of Mrs.Dash. I've gotten very bored with lemon pepper and herb.
Now after I've said all of that my results were fantastic! I lost 3.2 pounds over the weekend, which brings me down into the 190's! I'm so excited about that I can hardly contain myself. It's been nearly 3 years since I have been in the 190's. At 198.4 lbs I am not quite on track with my mini goal, but I have big plans this week to catch up. I will continue with Jillian Michaels:30 day shred. Who is the trainer from both my dreams and nightmares. She is tough, motivating, and just a little scary. There is no way I can quit while doing one of her workouts, I'm convinced somehow she would know and knock on my door at 6:00am and then I would really pay for quitting! LOL yes that sounds completely crazy, but if you've ever done one of her workouts you know what I mean.
By next Monday my target weight is 195.4 lbs. Wow, that is just a little intimidating I must say. Since it means I need to lose 3 pounds this week to catch up. But I think if I stay on track, work hard, and make it through my weekend detox it can be done.
Last night I got to visit with my family over Kinect Video. It was wonderful to see them, even if it was just over the television screen. My father's cast is still very white, which is a shame, someone should sign it. My Mom looked great, but was very tired after working the early shift at work, which meant getting up at 5:30am. My sister was just too beautiful for words. I miss them all so much! The cool thing was they kept telling me how good I look. Part of that might be because they haven't seen me in a year and a half, and we haven't chatted on Kinect Video since Christmas. But they could definitely tell the difference that 17.4 pounds makes! It felt really good to have them notice and be so supportive, even being so far away what I am doing matters to them. That my friends, is what love and family are all about. We're only as far apart as what is in our hearts.
Stats time!
Week 4 of Mini Goal
Lost so far: 7.6 pounds
Left to Goal: 19.4 pounds
Weeks left: 8 including this week.
Ultimate Goal
Week 10
Total Lost: 17.4 pounds
Left to Goal: 53.4 pounds!
Over the weekend I did my 2 day detox as usual. I can't say that I overly enjoy doing the detox. I get a lot more hungry and I'm very tired of baked chicken. But over all it went very well. On Saturday I walked to the grocery store and did my shopping, and walked home with the groceries. It's not that bad, I push the cart home, and then it gets taken back to the store later. I managed to eat all 3 cucumbers that I bought, and some of the broccoli. I still can't make myself eat plain celery, so that is still in my fridge. I do have plans for the coming weekend's detox though. I bought a decent sized pork tenderloin, which I will season on Friday evening and put in the Crockpot over night. It will be a nice change to the dry baked chicken. I also plan to by myself a new flavour of Mrs.Dash. I've gotten very bored with lemon pepper and herb.
Now after I've said all of that my results were fantastic! I lost 3.2 pounds over the weekend, which brings me down into the 190's! I'm so excited about that I can hardly contain myself. It's been nearly 3 years since I have been in the 190's. At 198.4 lbs I am not quite on track with my mini goal, but I have big plans this week to catch up. I will continue with Jillian Michaels:30 day shred. Who is the trainer from both my dreams and nightmares. She is tough, motivating, and just a little scary. There is no way I can quit while doing one of her workouts, I'm convinced somehow she would know and knock on my door at 6:00am and then I would really pay for quitting! LOL yes that sounds completely crazy, but if you've ever done one of her workouts you know what I mean.
By next Monday my target weight is 195.4 lbs. Wow, that is just a little intimidating I must say. Since it means I need to lose 3 pounds this week to catch up. But I think if I stay on track, work hard, and make it through my weekend detox it can be done.
Last night I got to visit with my family over Kinect Video. It was wonderful to see them, even if it was just over the television screen. My father's cast is still very white, which is a shame, someone should sign it. My Mom looked great, but was very tired after working the early shift at work, which meant getting up at 5:30am. My sister was just too beautiful for words. I miss them all so much! The cool thing was they kept telling me how good I look. Part of that might be because they haven't seen me in a year and a half, and we haven't chatted on Kinect Video since Christmas. But they could definitely tell the difference that 17.4 pounds makes! It felt really good to have them notice and be so supportive, even being so far away what I am doing matters to them. That my friends, is what love and family are all about. We're only as far apart as what is in our hearts.
Stats time!
Week 4 of Mini Goal
Lost so far: 7.6 pounds
Left to Goal: 19.4 pounds
Weeks left: 8 including this week.
Ultimate Goal
Week 10
Total Lost: 17.4 pounds
Left to Goal: 53.4 pounds!
Monday, March 28, 2011
Monday WI & Mini Goal report 4
This weekend I did the detox, and I thought it went pretty well. It rained all weekend which made me sleepy, so I managed to sleep in way too late. Inspite of that this morning I weighed in at 200.0! That's a total loss for last week of 3.2 pounds, and it puts me right on track for my mini goal! I'm super excited to be on track with that, and I look forward to seeing how this week goes.
Over the weekend my fibromyalgia flared up pretty bad, which was part of the reason for so much sleeping. It made my hips and legs hurt so bad I could hardly move at all. I managed some stretching last night before bed that helped some, but it was definitely rough. This also meant that other than a 2 hour grocery shopping trip I didn't do much exercise over the weekend. And I'll admit to not getting up to exercise this morning, I wanted to, but the pain was just too much and it woke me up frequently during the night. I plan to do some walking today that will hopefully losen the muscles and relax my joints a little.
I did get my first workout dvd in the mail from netflix, Jillian Michaels:30 day shred! I'm excited and a little nervous, but I hope to try it out tomorrow morning. I will probably do some more stretching this evening to relieve the pain a little more in preparation.
Overall, last week was fantastic! I managed to keep up with my mini goal, got up to exercise, and I felt great!
Stats:
Mini goal 2
Lost week 2: 3.2 lbs
Left to 179: 21 lbs
9 weeks left
Ultimate goal
Week 9
Total lost: 15.8 lbs
Left to 145: 55 lbs!
Over the weekend my fibromyalgia flared up pretty bad, which was part of the reason for so much sleeping. It made my hips and legs hurt so bad I could hardly move at all. I managed some stretching last night before bed that helped some, but it was definitely rough. This also meant that other than a 2 hour grocery shopping trip I didn't do much exercise over the weekend. And I'll admit to not getting up to exercise this morning, I wanted to, but the pain was just too much and it woke me up frequently during the night. I plan to do some walking today that will hopefully losen the muscles and relax my joints a little.
I did get my first workout dvd in the mail from netflix, Jillian Michaels:30 day shred! I'm excited and a little nervous, but I hope to try it out tomorrow morning. I will probably do some more stretching this evening to relieve the pain a little more in preparation.
Overall, last week was fantastic! I managed to keep up with my mini goal, got up to exercise, and I felt great!
Stats:
Mini goal 2
Lost week 2: 3.2 lbs
Left to 179: 21 lbs
9 weeks left
Ultimate goal
Week 9
Total lost: 15.8 lbs
Left to 145: 55 lbs!
Friday, March 25, 2011
Mini Goal Report 3!
This morning's weigh in had me doing a little dance in the bathroom (where I keep my scale)! I lost 1 whole pound from Wednesday's weigh in! That is the first time I have lost that much, and had a loss at the previous weigh in. Every other time I've had a slight gain the WI before, and then a big loss. This time I got a small loss, 0.4 lbs, and then a big loss 1.0 lbs! It feels good to know that all my efforts are making a difference in my life, and I'm making progress towards my goal. I've lost a full 14 pounds in 8 weeks! This mini goal will have me with 36.8 pounds gone forever in 18 weeks. I just don't think it gets much better than that!
This morning I got up and tried the 10 Minute solution Kick box bootcamp workout. I got through the basic training, which was only the first ten minutes. I was pretty winded at that point, so I did not continue. But hopefully I will be vastly improving in my fitness over the next few weeks. Jillian Michaels: 30 Day Shred is on it's way to me from netflix right now. I'm really looking forward to doing it. I'll be honest and say I am a little intimidated, I've heard that it is really hard, and it will take me awhile to get the hang of it. Mostly due to the fact that my coordination at 7 something am is not too good. This morning I stubbled through a few parts, but I made the effort and I didn't get annoyed and quit at the first sign of klumsiness. Which has been my tendency with workout videos in the past.
Over the weekend I plan to walk the dog, or at least play with the dog outside. I have grocery shopping to do. And I am also starting my 2 day detox on Saturday morning! I'm really looking forward to my WI on Monday, where my target weight will be 200.0 lbs. I would love to exceed that, but will be happy if I'm just able to meet it.
Yesterday a friend who is aware of my efforts at losing weight, called me skinny girl. I was speechless, no one has ever used those words to describe me in my life. NEVER! It made me realize just how big of a difference 14 pounds has made in my appearance and how I feel about myself. I'm not quite at the point where I'm comfortable moving down a dress size, mostly because of how tight my current size was before I started losing weight. I think in the next 10 lbs or so all the clothes that I've been hanging on to, but have avoided trying on will be pulled out. And much of what I am wearing now will be removed from my wardrobe.
I've been looking back over the last few days and remembering how I used to look. When I was 175 lbs I still thought I was unbelievably fat, but I felt a lot better about myself because I knew I'd lost 25 lbs. I knew I looked better, but I didn't appreciate how much better. I think of when I was in the 180's and the 190's and I hated it, I was so disgusted with myself and now I can't wait to see what my 190's and then 180's body looks like. Until my 12th grade year I had not been on a scale since I was in the 6th grade. So in all that time I have no idea what I weighed when, and I know my body image was very skewed. That makes it really tough for me to visualise what I will be like at 170, 160, 150 and so on, until I reach my goal. I do know one thing, I want lean and firm muscles. And not just lean and firm abs, although that one might be the biggest challenge. But lean and firm thighs, butt, and arms. I want that general flabby feeling to be exercised out of this body.
I have a huge pet peeve, it's this statement. "weight is just a number." Who came up with something so incredibly wish washy and unhelpful a statement as that? It's an excuse only! It basically says,"don't worry about your weight, feel good about yourself no matter how you look or how healthy you are." Now who would actually come out and say that? Because we all know that how we feel about ourselves is directly connected to what we percieve our appearance to be. How we feel is directly connected to our health, it's hard to be positive and enjoy life if you have no energy or are facing heart disease, diabetes, joint break down, etc. Weight has a direct coorellation to our health, our self-image and body-image. Not to say that making our weight ideal will resolve all health issues, or all self/body image issues. But I do believe, that for the most part it makes it easier. The other key ingredient in feeling good about ourselves and being healthy is having the ability to be real and honest with ourselves without beating ourselves up, or being deraugatory. My weight was a lot easier to face when I started being honest with myself, at that point I was released from shame and embarassment. And I could just accept myself wherever I am in my life.
Stats time!
Mini goal week 2
Lost: 2.8 lbs so far
Left to Goal: 22.8
9 weeks left
Ultimate goal week 8
Lost: 14 lbs
Left to Goal:56.8lbs
This morning I got up and tried the 10 Minute solution Kick box bootcamp workout. I got through the basic training, which was only the first ten minutes. I was pretty winded at that point, so I did not continue. But hopefully I will be vastly improving in my fitness over the next few weeks. Jillian Michaels: 30 Day Shred is on it's way to me from netflix right now. I'm really looking forward to doing it. I'll be honest and say I am a little intimidated, I've heard that it is really hard, and it will take me awhile to get the hang of it. Mostly due to the fact that my coordination at 7 something am is not too good. This morning I stubbled through a few parts, but I made the effort and I didn't get annoyed and quit at the first sign of klumsiness. Which has been my tendency with workout videos in the past.
Over the weekend I plan to walk the dog, or at least play with the dog outside. I have grocery shopping to do. And I am also starting my 2 day detox on Saturday morning! I'm really looking forward to my WI on Monday, where my target weight will be 200.0 lbs. I would love to exceed that, but will be happy if I'm just able to meet it.
Yesterday a friend who is aware of my efforts at losing weight, called me skinny girl. I was speechless, no one has ever used those words to describe me in my life. NEVER! It made me realize just how big of a difference 14 pounds has made in my appearance and how I feel about myself. I'm not quite at the point where I'm comfortable moving down a dress size, mostly because of how tight my current size was before I started losing weight. I think in the next 10 lbs or so all the clothes that I've been hanging on to, but have avoided trying on will be pulled out. And much of what I am wearing now will be removed from my wardrobe.
I've been looking back over the last few days and remembering how I used to look. When I was 175 lbs I still thought I was unbelievably fat, but I felt a lot better about myself because I knew I'd lost 25 lbs. I knew I looked better, but I didn't appreciate how much better. I think of when I was in the 180's and the 190's and I hated it, I was so disgusted with myself and now I can't wait to see what my 190's and then 180's body looks like. Until my 12th grade year I had not been on a scale since I was in the 6th grade. So in all that time I have no idea what I weighed when, and I know my body image was very skewed. That makes it really tough for me to visualise what I will be like at 170, 160, 150 and so on, until I reach my goal. I do know one thing, I want lean and firm muscles. And not just lean and firm abs, although that one might be the biggest challenge. But lean and firm thighs, butt, and arms. I want that general flabby feeling to be exercised out of this body.
I have a huge pet peeve, it's this statement. "weight is just a number." Who came up with something so incredibly wish washy and unhelpful a statement as that? It's an excuse only! It basically says,"don't worry about your weight, feel good about yourself no matter how you look or how healthy you are." Now who would actually come out and say that? Because we all know that how we feel about ourselves is directly connected to what we percieve our appearance to be. How we feel is directly connected to our health, it's hard to be positive and enjoy life if you have no energy or are facing heart disease, diabetes, joint break down, etc. Weight has a direct coorellation to our health, our self-image and body-image. Not to say that making our weight ideal will resolve all health issues, or all self/body image issues. But I do believe, that for the most part it makes it easier. The other key ingredient in feeling good about ourselves and being healthy is having the ability to be real and honest with ourselves without beating ourselves up, or being deraugatory. My weight was a lot easier to face when I started being honest with myself, at that point I was released from shame and embarassment. And I could just accept myself wherever I am in my life.
Stats time!
Mini goal week 2
Lost: 2.8 lbs so far
Left to Goal: 22.8
9 weeks left
Ultimate goal week 8
Lost: 14 lbs
Left to Goal:56.8lbs
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Mini Goal Report 2
Hey everyone! This morning I finally got my keester out of bed and exercised. To prepare last night I added a bunch of workouts to the instant queue on netflix, then I watched the one I wanted to try start to finish without doing it. Crunch: cardio salsa. It looked really fun, and a few of the moves were very familiar. So I put it on this morning and I discovered that my coordination at 7:20am is lacking greatly! I switched to a yoga workout. Which I had done before, it is very beginner, and very relaxing. I enjoyed it, but I think I need a workout with a little more oomph. I'm looking forward to my netflix dvd getting here next week I have quite the assortment in both dvd queues. Here's a list, feel free to comment on any you may have tried.
DVD Queue
1. Jillian Michaels: 30 day shred- this is going to kick my butt! I'm looking forward to it though. Once I have mastered the whole thing I plan to send it back and move on. I will do that with all the workouts I like.
2.The Biggest Loser: Weight loss yoga
3. Leslie Sansone: Walk your belly fat
4.Dance Fitness for beginners-Joby Brava
5.Jillian Michaels for beginners: Backside- I'm looking forward to the frontside of this workout becoming available on netflix.
6.The Biggest Loser: The Workout: Cardio Max Weight Loss
7. The Biggest Loser: The workout: power walk
8. Jillian Michaels: Yoga Meltdown
9. Jillian Michaels: No more trouble zones
10. Yoga Booty Ballet: Complete discs 1-3 -This just plain looks like fun. I always wanted to learn ballet as a kid, I guess that's never really gone away.
11.Trainers Edge
12. The trainers edge: Fiesta Fitness Dance
13.Ballet Conditioning
My Instant queue is rather long, but it is mostly Crunch workouts, and a few misc yoga workouts.
I am doing the dvds because I really need to step up my game if I'm going to make it to my goal in less than 10 weeks. On Wednesday my weigh in was 202.8, down .4 from Monday. Which is great, but not enough to cut it. To be on track with my goal I need to weigh in at 200 this coming Monday. My new workouts are going to make a significant difference, and I'm looking forward to seeing results from it. The other thing I am doing is a 2 day detox on Saturday's and Sunday's every weekend until I reach my mini goal. I think I've mentioned this 2 day detox before, it's very simple and easy to follow. And here's the best part, effective!
I want to get to my ultimate goal as healthy and quickly as possible. Because the step after that, and maybe the hardest part will be learning to maintain my weight. Thats the real challenge I think, keeping this going throughout my life.
Here is my stat update
Week 2
Lost: 0.4 (as of Wednesday)
To Mini Goal: 23.8 lbs
Current weight: 202.8
Measurements
Old Bust: 45" - New Bust: 44" =Lost: 1"
Old Waist: 41" - New Waist: 38" = Lost 3"
Old Thigh: 26" - New Thigh: 25" =Lost 1"
Old Hips: 50 - New Hips: 47 = Lost 3"
For a total of 8" lost in 5 weeks.
I'm very excited about that, but I'm also ready to really step things up. Because the reality is, I've been lazy about my exercise. I think it was okay, because I took the last few weeks to really get my eating plan down, and be adjusted and used to it. I'm ready for another change, and more hard work!
DVD Queue
1. Jillian Michaels: 30 day shred- this is going to kick my butt! I'm looking forward to it though. Once I have mastered the whole thing I plan to send it back and move on. I will do that with all the workouts I like.
2.The Biggest Loser: Weight loss yoga
3. Leslie Sansone: Walk your belly fat
4.Dance Fitness for beginners-Joby Brava
5.Jillian Michaels for beginners: Backside- I'm looking forward to the frontside of this workout becoming available on netflix.
6.The Biggest Loser: The Workout: Cardio Max Weight Loss
7. The Biggest Loser: The workout: power walk
8. Jillian Michaels: Yoga Meltdown
9. Jillian Michaels: No more trouble zones
10. Yoga Booty Ballet: Complete discs 1-3 -This just plain looks like fun. I always wanted to learn ballet as a kid, I guess that's never really gone away.
11.Trainers Edge
12. The trainers edge: Fiesta Fitness Dance
13.Ballet Conditioning
My Instant queue is rather long, but it is mostly Crunch workouts, and a few misc yoga workouts.
I am doing the dvds because I really need to step up my game if I'm going to make it to my goal in less than 10 weeks. On Wednesday my weigh in was 202.8, down .4 from Monday. Which is great, but not enough to cut it. To be on track with my goal I need to weigh in at 200 this coming Monday. My new workouts are going to make a significant difference, and I'm looking forward to seeing results from it. The other thing I am doing is a 2 day detox on Saturday's and Sunday's every weekend until I reach my mini goal. I think I've mentioned this 2 day detox before, it's very simple and easy to follow. And here's the best part, effective!
I want to get to my ultimate goal as healthy and quickly as possible. Because the step after that, and maybe the hardest part will be learning to maintain my weight. Thats the real challenge I think, keeping this going throughout my life.
Here is my stat update
Week 2
Lost: 0.4 (as of Wednesday)
To Mini Goal: 23.8 lbs
Current weight: 202.8
Measurements
Old Bust: 45" - New Bust: 44" =Lost: 1"
Old Waist: 41" - New Waist: 38" = Lost 3"
Old Thigh: 26" - New Thigh: 25" =Lost 1"
Old Hips: 50 - New Hips: 47 = Lost 3"
For a total of 8" lost in 5 weeks.
I'm very excited about that, but I'm also ready to really step things up. Because the reality is, I've been lazy about my exercise. I think it was okay, because I took the last few weeks to really get my eating plan down, and be adjusted and used to it. I'm ready for another change, and more hard work!
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Anniversary
Today is a special day in my life. Firstly it is the my sister Michelle's birthday! I want to say a huge HAPPY BIRTHDAY to her, I miss her very much, we live way too far apart.
Second, Mar 22nd is the first day that my husband let me know how he felt about me. That was three years ago, after talking all night long. I wanted to get off the call, and let him go to sleep. He said,"No, I'll miss you too much." So much for us being "just friends" lol.
Thirdly, and most appropriately for this post, the one year anniversary since I set out on my weight loss journey. Wow! I realized that a little while ago, and it shocked me. At times it has felt like it dragged on and on, and I would never make any progress. But the time has also flown by. So much has happened in my life, and in my journey. At first I did my best to sift through the information about weight loss on the internet, what do the experts say? I put together the best program I could possibly manage by myself, and without guidance to know what was complete bunk.
I started out with a food journal, I counted my calories and measured my servings with gusto for several months. I exercised with enthusiasm, and I saw myself improve. I still ate things that weren't too good for me, I tried for the healthier alternative to really unhealthy food choices. I succeeded from March until the beginning of June. In June I hit a road block, I ran out of B.C. and started to not feel too well. It was also the one year anniversary of some very difficult trials in my life. I just really struggled, and essentially gave up many of the good habits I had started developing. I slowly gained back the weight I had lost.
Around September I started to put in more effort, I worked hard, but I just didn't quite manage it. I bounced around with the same 3-5 pounds and I just couldn't break through. I gave up yet again. Up until the middle on February I gained all the way back to 215. I was very upset, and very unhappy with how I felt and looked. To put it bluntly I felt so completely unattractive that I could hardly stand to get out of bed in the morning.
In December a friend shared their struggle with weight loss, and how they felt about it. They also shared what they were doing. They had replaced breakfast and lunch with a protein bar, then ate whatever they wanted and dinner, and on weekends. It was working. I decided to give it a shot, at first I lost a little maybe 3 pounds. Then I started gain, and fast! I just could not stop being starving, I mean so hungry I could eat a horse and chase the rider! My grandma used to say that lol.
In February I got the email from Tiffany, and she put my in touch with Jae. I am truely grateful for that event in my life. If I hadn't met Jae I really think I would have given up. I was having such a hard time losing even the smallest amount of weight. The program that Jae helped me get on, and is helping me follow has changed everything about this journey. It's especially changed the way I look at my body, and my health. And it has really changed the way I look at food.
You could say I've come full circle and then some! This time last year I was motivated, I was so determined and excited to change. I also thought that I would just make it work for me, and it would keep working for me, and I would never let myself quit or slip up. Boy, was I wrong. But I'm definitely stronger for the experience, the frustration, the successes, and the disappointments. I know this will be an up and down road, there will be plenty of bumps. What matters the most is how I handle the bumps. Do I reach for a spoon and bucket of ice cream, or do I continue with my routine. The healthy foods that I enjoy.
The number one tip I read about and thought was complete idiocy that I use now. Drink more water. I drink before I eat, I drink water while eating, I drink water after I eat. I drink water when I feel bored, and normally would have snacked. Only after I drink more water, and still feel hungry do I get a snack. And then I make every effort to stay within my daily serving plan. I LOVE carrots lol, it's my favorite snack food.
I'm beginning to get compliments about the weight I have lost. My sister in law saw me the other day, and she said,"Wow, you've lost a lot of weight!" Wow that made me feel great! Everyone else in my life I see so often that it's harder to notice.
So Cheers to this last year and all I've learned!
Second, Mar 22nd is the first day that my husband let me know how he felt about me. That was three years ago, after talking all night long. I wanted to get off the call, and let him go to sleep. He said,"No, I'll miss you too much." So much for us being "just friends" lol.
Thirdly, and most appropriately for this post, the one year anniversary since I set out on my weight loss journey. Wow! I realized that a little while ago, and it shocked me. At times it has felt like it dragged on and on, and I would never make any progress. But the time has also flown by. So much has happened in my life, and in my journey. At first I did my best to sift through the information about weight loss on the internet, what do the experts say? I put together the best program I could possibly manage by myself, and without guidance to know what was complete bunk.
I started out with a food journal, I counted my calories and measured my servings with gusto for several months. I exercised with enthusiasm, and I saw myself improve. I still ate things that weren't too good for me, I tried for the healthier alternative to really unhealthy food choices. I succeeded from March until the beginning of June. In June I hit a road block, I ran out of B.C. and started to not feel too well. It was also the one year anniversary of some very difficult trials in my life. I just really struggled, and essentially gave up many of the good habits I had started developing. I slowly gained back the weight I had lost.
Around September I started to put in more effort, I worked hard, but I just didn't quite manage it. I bounced around with the same 3-5 pounds and I just couldn't break through. I gave up yet again. Up until the middle on February I gained all the way back to 215. I was very upset, and very unhappy with how I felt and looked. To put it bluntly I felt so completely unattractive that I could hardly stand to get out of bed in the morning.
In December a friend shared their struggle with weight loss, and how they felt about it. They also shared what they were doing. They had replaced breakfast and lunch with a protein bar, then ate whatever they wanted and dinner, and on weekends. It was working. I decided to give it a shot, at first I lost a little maybe 3 pounds. Then I started gain, and fast! I just could not stop being starving, I mean so hungry I could eat a horse and chase the rider! My grandma used to say that lol.
In February I got the email from Tiffany, and she put my in touch with Jae. I am truely grateful for that event in my life. If I hadn't met Jae I really think I would have given up. I was having such a hard time losing even the smallest amount of weight. The program that Jae helped me get on, and is helping me follow has changed everything about this journey. It's especially changed the way I look at my body, and my health. And it has really changed the way I look at food.
You could say I've come full circle and then some! This time last year I was motivated, I was so determined and excited to change. I also thought that I would just make it work for me, and it would keep working for me, and I would never let myself quit or slip up. Boy, was I wrong. But I'm definitely stronger for the experience, the frustration, the successes, and the disappointments. I know this will be an up and down road, there will be plenty of bumps. What matters the most is how I handle the bumps. Do I reach for a spoon and bucket of ice cream, or do I continue with my routine. The healthy foods that I enjoy.
The number one tip I read about and thought was complete idiocy that I use now. Drink more water. I drink before I eat, I drink water while eating, I drink water after I eat. I drink water when I feel bored, and normally would have snacked. Only after I drink more water, and still feel hungry do I get a snack. And then I make every effort to stay within my daily serving plan. I LOVE carrots lol, it's my favorite snack food.
I'm beginning to get compliments about the weight I have lost. My sister in law saw me the other day, and she said,"Wow, you've lost a lot of weight!" Wow that made me feel great! Everyone else in my life I see so often that it's harder to notice.
So Cheers to this last year and all I've learned!
Monday, March 21, 2011
Mini Goal report 1
The dinner on Sunday went well. I had one hamburger pattey, which I counted as a full serving of protein. I put it on multi-grain sandwich thins, a little ketchup/mustard, and 1 oz of cheese. I then had 2 servings of fresh fruits, and a garden salad. I drank water the entire time, and finished my full 75oz for the day.
I felt that the weekend went well, and I feel good. There is just one draw back. My husband got into the cooking on Sunday, and made his famous seasoned burgers. They were delicious, but contained too much salt for me. He used worstershire sauce (high in sodium), garlic powder, red pepper flakes, and meat tenderizer (also probably high in sodium). I was busy with other preparations and did not remember to ask him to do mine without those seasonings. We thought of it later on the way home.
Weigh in this morning, which was the end of week 1, and the beginning of week 2. I did not lose anything from Friday's Weigh in. I stayed exactly the same. I think that is probably due to the sodium which I am very sensitive to, and I expect to see a good weigh in on Wednesday.
Here is what I am going to do today and Tuesday to make Wednesday great: drink all the water I possibly can. Go for a walk this evening with Jabber Jane, get up early Tuesday and walk Jabber Jane. Follow and track myself on my eating program!
For week 1 I am down from 204.6 to 203.2 a loss of 1.4 in total. However I had some gains in the middle of last week, so this week I plan to do much better.
Stats
To Mini Goal: 24.2 pounds
Weeks left: 10
To Ultimate goal: 58.2 pounds
Total Lost : 12.6 pounds
I felt that the weekend went well, and I feel good. There is just one draw back. My husband got into the cooking on Sunday, and made his famous seasoned burgers. They were delicious, but contained too much salt for me. He used worstershire sauce (high in sodium), garlic powder, red pepper flakes, and meat tenderizer (also probably high in sodium). I was busy with other preparations and did not remember to ask him to do mine without those seasonings. We thought of it later on the way home.
Weigh in this morning, which was the end of week 1, and the beginning of week 2. I did not lose anything from Friday's Weigh in. I stayed exactly the same. I think that is probably due to the sodium which I am very sensitive to, and I expect to see a good weigh in on Wednesday.
Here is what I am going to do today and Tuesday to make Wednesday great: drink all the water I possibly can. Go for a walk this evening with Jabber Jane, get up early Tuesday and walk Jabber Jane. Follow and track myself on my eating program!
For week 1 I am down from 204.6 to 203.2 a loss of 1.4 in total. However I had some gains in the middle of last week, so this week I plan to do much better.
Stats
To Mini Goal: 24.2 pounds
Weeks left: 10
To Ultimate goal: 58.2 pounds
Total Lost : 12.6 pounds
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Mini Goal #2!
After weighing in this morning and being down 2.8 pounds (I was up on wednesday) to 203.2! I got really excited, and emailed Jae. I decided I want another picture to see the difference that 12.6 pounds makes. She suggested I also take my measurements again because it has been a few weeks. I asked her if I couldn't do another mini goal. I want to be 179 by my birthday! Starting retroactively to count this week, that is exactly 11 weeks. Since Monday's weight of 204.6 I have 25.6 pounds to lose. I have already lost 1.4 of that, so 24.2 to go. The way I am doing it is from Monday-Monday, so the end of one weeks weighing is the beginning of anothers. I have to lose an average of 2.32 pounds per week to make this happen.
I believe I can do it, I want it, and I am going to work my butt off for it! You know I haven't been at 179 since 2006! Wow I can hardly wait! My strategy is to drink tons and tons of water, follow my plan to the letter, and exercise in the mornings during the week. Also eat a whole ton of veggies, which I love!
I am so extremely excited about this goal I can hardly contain myself lol. The plan is for me to update on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday each week until I make my Mini goal. I will update about my ultimate goal once a week on Monday's.
My first Challenge: Sunday Dinner at the In-Laws!
Mini Goal 179.0! Stats
Current weight: 203.2
To Go: 24.2
Weeks Left:10, plus one weigh in.
I believe I can do it, I want it, and I am going to work my butt off for it! You know I haven't been at 179 since 2006! Wow I can hardly wait! My strategy is to drink tons and tons of water, follow my plan to the letter, and exercise in the mornings during the week. Also eat a whole ton of veggies, which I love!
I am so extremely excited about this goal I can hardly contain myself lol. The plan is for me to update on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday each week until I make my Mini goal. I will update about my ultimate goal once a week on Monday's.
My first Challenge: Sunday Dinner at the In-Laws!
Mini Goal 179.0! Stats
Current weight: 203.2
To Go: 24.2
Weeks Left:10, plus one weigh in.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Back on Track
So last week with all the eating out really threw me off. I started picking at food here and there that really wasn't in my program. And the funny part is I really didn't enjoy it, I just felt bad. Yesterday I made a trip to Kroger to get all the snacks that I can have and enjoy, fruits and veggies mostly. It was so much easier to have dinner and feel good about what I ate, regular shopping is essential! Monday and Tuesday I did the picking thing, and I ate some things I shouldn't have because I wasn't feeling well. My Weigh in on Wednesday was up 1.4 lbs to 206lbs. I suspect it was related to salt intake.
I'm looking forward to tomorrows Weigh In, because I know that I have eaten right, and made healthy choices for my body, and my goals. It feels good!
Also yesterday was a day for being given awesome things. My friend Angela brought me a ton of clothes, which were really cute. And 6 pairs of jeans! I don't think I've ever owned that many pairs of jeans before. Now I have 12 pairs of pants in various sizes. Right now only 2 pairs fit comfortably, but I am really looking forward to getting into all the other pairs I have. And I've made a vow to myself. I will never again squeeze into a pair of jeans, if they do not do up easily and comfortably they are not going on this body! No way! There's just no reason to wear something that is comfortable and painful.
I'm also excited about discovering Hungry girl Egg Mug recipes, they are going to be so yummy!
I'm looking forward to tomorrows Weigh In, because I know that I have eaten right, and made healthy choices for my body, and my goals. It feels good!
Also yesterday was a day for being given awesome things. My friend Angela brought me a ton of clothes, which were really cute. And 6 pairs of jeans! I don't think I've ever owned that many pairs of jeans before. Now I have 12 pairs of pants in various sizes. Right now only 2 pairs fit comfortably, but I am really looking forward to getting into all the other pairs I have. And I've made a vow to myself. I will never again squeeze into a pair of jeans, if they do not do up easily and comfortably they are not going on this body! No way! There's just no reason to wear something that is comfortable and painful.
I'm also excited about discovering Hungry girl Egg Mug recipes, they are going to be so yummy!
Monday, March 14, 2011
10+
Whoo Hooo! Yippee! 11.2 pounds down!
This last week was rough, my hubby and I were helping a friend until 9pm tues-thurs. And out of the goodness of their hearts they took us out for dinner. Unfortunately, I learned just how hard it is to be on my program and eat out! I found that even though the food was delicious, I didn't like not knowing what was in my food, or how it was prepared. That was a serious challenge for me, but I did my best to eat healthy and avoid the buffet of desserts.
I feel like I had a lot of successes. On Tuesday we went to Rosie's a mexican place, where the put baskets of tortilla chips and salsa on the table before your meal arrives. I can't eat chips on my program, I did not have a single bite. And when I ordered my fajita salad I requested the remove the tortilla crisps altogether, and bring me the toppings on the side. The only things I should have done and didn't was ask for no sour cream, and no olives. I do not like olives! In the end it was delicious!
Wednesday we went to Ryan's buffet, it was okay. I found myself starving, and just walking around trying to figure out what I could have. I didn't want another salad. I avoided the fried chicken, dishes laden with cheese, and everything drenched in grease. However I probably ate a little too much anyway.
Thursday we went to McCalister's, OH WOW so good! I had a bowl of chilli, and half a Grilled Buffalo Chicken salad! Delicious! That I think was just fine, I even asked for lite ranch instead of bleu cheese dressing. However I tried some of my hubby's roast beef and gravy(it was on a sandwich but I did not eat the bread). I had 3 bites and realized it was crazy salty for me. I did not ask for a bite of the Cheesecake my hubby was finishing! That was hard!
Friday was a difficult day, I found out my Dad broke his arm and might need surgery. I had many worries involved with that, and I don't think I was ever as home sick as I was this weekend. I definitely ate too much starch in the form of fat free ice cream.
Saturday my Mother-in-law took us to 88 buffet, I did my very best to avoid anything with breading, or that was deep fried. I had a lot of veggies and a lot of fruit. Once again I avoided the desserts! Although once again I had too much starch in the form of the rest of the fat free ice cream. UGH I was not happy with myself.
Sunday I was good. I ate all at home. For breakfast I had apple sauce, then I had my recipe of grilled chicken, black beans, veggies, and brown rice, topped with a little roasted red pepper vinigarette dressing. I had 1 cup of no sugar added cranberry/raspberry juice for the rest of my fruits. The for dinner we had chicken wings (baked) and I had more mix veggies and brown rice. I also drank a ton of water.
I had a nasty migraine last night, the first real headache I have had since starting on this program. It really knocked me down, the pain was so bad I couldn't even lay my head on my pillow. In fact I am still dealing with it, by keeping up my tylenol every 4 hours, otherwise it comes back.
But inspite of my disaster week my weigh in's went like this.
Monday down 0.8 for 206.4lb
Wednesday down 0.2 for 206.2 lb
Friday Up 0.8 for 207lb
This Monday down 2.4 for 204.6 lbs!
Stats
Lost last week: 1.6 lbs
Total lost: 11.2 lbs
To go: 59.6lbs!
This last week was rough, my hubby and I were helping a friend until 9pm tues-thurs. And out of the goodness of their hearts they took us out for dinner. Unfortunately, I learned just how hard it is to be on my program and eat out! I found that even though the food was delicious, I didn't like not knowing what was in my food, or how it was prepared. That was a serious challenge for me, but I did my best to eat healthy and avoid the buffet of desserts.
I feel like I had a lot of successes. On Tuesday we went to Rosie's a mexican place, where the put baskets of tortilla chips and salsa on the table before your meal arrives. I can't eat chips on my program, I did not have a single bite. And when I ordered my fajita salad I requested the remove the tortilla crisps altogether, and bring me the toppings on the side. The only things I should have done and didn't was ask for no sour cream, and no olives. I do not like olives! In the end it was delicious!
Wednesday we went to Ryan's buffet, it was okay. I found myself starving, and just walking around trying to figure out what I could have. I didn't want another salad. I avoided the fried chicken, dishes laden with cheese, and everything drenched in grease. However I probably ate a little too much anyway.
Thursday we went to McCalister's, OH WOW so good! I had a bowl of chilli, and half a Grilled Buffalo Chicken salad! Delicious! That I think was just fine, I even asked for lite ranch instead of bleu cheese dressing. However I tried some of my hubby's roast beef and gravy(it was on a sandwich but I did not eat the bread). I had 3 bites and realized it was crazy salty for me. I did not ask for a bite of the Cheesecake my hubby was finishing! That was hard!
Friday was a difficult day, I found out my Dad broke his arm and might need surgery. I had many worries involved with that, and I don't think I was ever as home sick as I was this weekend. I definitely ate too much starch in the form of fat free ice cream.
Saturday my Mother-in-law took us to 88 buffet, I did my very best to avoid anything with breading, or that was deep fried. I had a lot of veggies and a lot of fruit. Once again I avoided the desserts! Although once again I had too much starch in the form of the rest of the fat free ice cream. UGH I was not happy with myself.
Sunday I was good. I ate all at home. For breakfast I had apple sauce, then I had my recipe of grilled chicken, black beans, veggies, and brown rice, topped with a little roasted red pepper vinigarette dressing. I had 1 cup of no sugar added cranberry/raspberry juice for the rest of my fruits. The for dinner we had chicken wings (baked) and I had more mix veggies and brown rice. I also drank a ton of water.
I had a nasty migraine last night, the first real headache I have had since starting on this program. It really knocked me down, the pain was so bad I couldn't even lay my head on my pillow. In fact I am still dealing with it, by keeping up my tylenol every 4 hours, otherwise it comes back.
But inspite of my disaster week my weigh in's went like this.
Monday down 0.8 for 206.4lb
Wednesday down 0.2 for 206.2 lb
Friday Up 0.8 for 207lb
This Monday down 2.4 for 204.6 lbs!
Stats
Lost last week: 1.6 lbs
Total lost: 11.2 lbs
To go: 59.6lbs!
Monday, March 7, 2011
Monday's Victory!
Oh yeah! I feel fantastic! I was a little nervous as I stepped onto my scale this morning. Remembering how wonky my weekend was, not having my usual yummy and healthy foods. (the continuous rain on Saturday kept me from restocking) But much to my surprise when the blinking was over the scale read 206.4! Then it went into it's next phase and told me I was down 0.8 from the last time I weighed, which was Friday. This means that from last Monday I lost a FULL 2 POUNDS! I haven't done that since my detox over three weeks ago. That tells me I am doing something right, and things can only get better from here as I continue with my efforts to find the foods my body likes the best.
I don't ever remember a time when I felt this good about myself. I am actually succeeding, and it is not the "nearly impossible day after endless day struggle" that it has always been in the past. Now my best effort actually makes a difference. It's so liberating, I no longer feel like I'm drifting along with the rest of society that is struggling to find the answer to weight loss. Notice I said answer, not quick fix, or secret. It's not a secret! It's just a matter of the proper balance of nutrition so that the body can work and burn efficiently. Eating clean has got to be the best thing for my health that I have ever come across. Here are a few benefits I am seeing already, after just 4 weeks.
1. I sleep better
2. I have less pain
3. I have more energy
4. I have less cravings
5. I have no more headaches
6. Confidence
7. I am losing weight without starving
8. Better able to cope with stress and emotions
Stats
Loss this week: 2 lbs!
Total Loss: 9.4 lbs!
To Goal: 61.4 lbs!
Next week find out how I did with my Goal to walk 1.6 miles every morning with Jabber Jane.
I don't ever remember a time when I felt this good about myself. I am actually succeeding, and it is not the "nearly impossible day after endless day struggle" that it has always been in the past. Now my best effort actually makes a difference. It's so liberating, I no longer feel like I'm drifting along with the rest of society that is struggling to find the answer to weight loss. Notice I said answer, not quick fix, or secret. It's not a secret! It's just a matter of the proper balance of nutrition so that the body can work and burn efficiently. Eating clean has got to be the best thing for my health that I have ever come across. Here are a few benefits I am seeing already, after just 4 weeks.
1. I sleep better
2. I have less pain
3. I have more energy
4. I have less cravings
5. I have no more headaches
6. Confidence
7. I am losing weight without starving
8. Better able to cope with stress and emotions
Stats
Loss this week: 2 lbs!
Total Loss: 9.4 lbs!
To Goal: 61.4 lbs!
Next week find out how I did with my Goal to walk 1.6 miles every morning with Jabber Jane.
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Wednesday's Weigh in!
I'm not going to say that this program is easy. I'm not going to say that I never want something I shouldn't have. And I'm not going to say that I am doing it perfectly (I need to exercise more). But I can say that it is working, it is worth it, and I am happy to be doing it.
As of Wednesday I am 207.6 pounds. I lost 1.4 pounds last week (Monday WI), and another 0.4 lbs from Monday to Wednesday! I feel great, my total loss is 8.2lbs, and I am at the point that I look forward to my weigh in's. I can't wait to see my hard work paying off. Knowing that saying no to that extra piece of cheese, that ice cream or cookies, it was worth it! Seeing the scale go down is so worth denying myself all the things that I know would hinder my progress. Oh and being able to do my belt up tighter and tighter, this week I went from the second loop in my low ridder pants to the third loop. And from the 4th loop in my higher rise jeans to the 5th loop. I am wearing shirts that I haven't worn in a long time, because I feel so much more confident now. I looked in the mirror and thought, "hey, I have a waist!" I can't wait to remember what I look like at 190, 180, 170....and so on. I am thinking that as my clothing becomes too big I will probably do a clothing box listing on Craigslist, so I can get more clothes!
And the diets not all that bad, I do get to have quite a number of foods that I really do enjoy. I am finding that I need to have a cooking day on the weekend so that I have my perfectly balanced meals that can just be heated up. It will making cooking seperately for myself and my hubby much easier.
I've been watching Man V. Food. That might seem like a weird thing to watch when my eating plan is so cut and dry. I simply cannot eat at any of the places he does, if I want to continue to have success. But I enjoy it, I see all that over eating, all the unhealthy foods, and it reminds me of why I am working so hard. I do not want to be a person who would even consider eating the 1.5lb sandwich and 2 gallon milkshake. That is not me! Would I like a small milkshake, and a healthy sized sandwich on whole grain bread, absolutely. And that will be acceptable. It really puts in perspective the disparity in our society from what our bodies need to be healthy, and what habits we foster for pleasure.
I also want to say this. There is nothing I CANNOT eat. I can put anything I want in my mouth, and the day that I find something I want to eat so badly that it is worth foregoing the weight I would lose (or gaining), I'll eat it. Thus far I have not found anything I want to eat that badly. I honestly cannot think of anything that would actually be worth it.
Stats
lost: 1.8 lbs
Total lost: 8.2 lbs
To goal: 62.6
As of Wednesday I am 207.6 pounds. I lost 1.4 pounds last week (Monday WI), and another 0.4 lbs from Monday to Wednesday! I feel great, my total loss is 8.2lbs, and I am at the point that I look forward to my weigh in's. I can't wait to see my hard work paying off. Knowing that saying no to that extra piece of cheese, that ice cream or cookies, it was worth it! Seeing the scale go down is so worth denying myself all the things that I know would hinder my progress. Oh and being able to do my belt up tighter and tighter, this week I went from the second loop in my low ridder pants to the third loop. And from the 4th loop in my higher rise jeans to the 5th loop. I am wearing shirts that I haven't worn in a long time, because I feel so much more confident now. I looked in the mirror and thought, "hey, I have a waist!" I can't wait to remember what I look like at 190, 180, 170....and so on. I am thinking that as my clothing becomes too big I will probably do a clothing box listing on Craigslist, so I can get more clothes!
And the diets not all that bad, I do get to have quite a number of foods that I really do enjoy. I am finding that I need to have a cooking day on the weekend so that I have my perfectly balanced meals that can just be heated up. It will making cooking seperately for myself and my hubby much easier.
I've been watching Man V. Food. That might seem like a weird thing to watch when my eating plan is so cut and dry. I simply cannot eat at any of the places he does, if I want to continue to have success. But I enjoy it, I see all that over eating, all the unhealthy foods, and it reminds me of why I am working so hard. I do not want to be a person who would even consider eating the 1.5lb sandwich and 2 gallon milkshake. That is not me! Would I like a small milkshake, and a healthy sized sandwich on whole grain bread, absolutely. And that will be acceptable. It really puts in perspective the disparity in our society from what our bodies need to be healthy, and what habits we foster for pleasure.
I also want to say this. There is nothing I CANNOT eat. I can put anything I want in my mouth, and the day that I find something I want to eat so badly that it is worth foregoing the weight I would lose (or gaining), I'll eat it. Thus far I have not found anything I want to eat that badly. I honestly cannot think of anything that would actually be worth it.
Stats
lost: 1.8 lbs
Total lost: 8.2 lbs
To goal: 62.6
Monday, February 21, 2011
Sweet Success!
Weigh in for last week...I got on the scale knowing that all (except one meal) this last week was perfectly within my program. The one meal that wasn't just had too much salt in the spices I used, oops.
So I stepped on the scale and held my breath to see just how well I did. This week I lost a total of 1.6 pounds! In the 10 days that I have been on this program I have lost 4.6 pounds! I feel better than I have in years. I have less pain, I sleep better, and I have more energy. Last night I could have sat and read for hours, but I had the energy to get up and do things. Laundry, dishes, and some general organizing. That feels amazing, to think about what needs done around my home and not be exhausted just thinking about it. I also feel a lot less stressed about life in general. I'm loving my new eating program, and I can't wait to see what the weeks ahead will hold.
Stats
This week lost: 1.6 lbs
Total lost: 6.4 lbs
Left to Goal: 64.4 lbs
So I stepped on the scale and held my breath to see just how well I did. This week I lost a total of 1.6 pounds! In the 10 days that I have been on this program I have lost 4.6 pounds! I feel better than I have in years. I have less pain, I sleep better, and I have more energy. Last night I could have sat and read for hours, but I had the energy to get up and do things. Laundry, dishes, and some general organizing. That feels amazing, to think about what needs done around my home and not be exhausted just thinking about it. I also feel a lot less stressed about life in general. I'm loving my new eating program, and I can't wait to see what the weeks ahead will hold.
Stats
This week lost: 1.6 lbs
Total lost: 6.4 lbs
Left to Goal: 64.4 lbs
Monday, February 14, 2011
Weigh In- Feb 14
After only 4 days with my weightloss consultant, I am down 3 lbs!!!!!!!!! I'm so excited, I actually had a significant loss. Saturday & Sunday my detox went pretty well. I think I will be a little better prepared next time, but it was only two days so that wasn't a big deal.
I feel so much better about myself and what I am doing. I finally have the direction to know that I am making healthy choices, and doing what is best for my body. 145 LBS HERE I COME!
Stats:
This week loss: 3lbs
Total Loss: 4.8 lbs
To Goal: 66 lbs!
I feel so much better about myself and what I am doing. I finally have the direction to know that I am making healthy choices, and doing what is best for my body. 145 LBS HERE I COME!
Stats:
This week loss: 3lbs
Total Loss: 4.8 lbs
To Goal: 66 lbs!
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Break Through! Oh yeah!
So a fantastic friend sent me a facebook message a little while ago. She asked how my weightloss was going and just in general how I am doing. Then she told me she has a friend that is a personal weightloss consultant and this month she is offering free consultations. She asked if I was interested. I didn't think too much of it at the time, but I said sure, why not. I thought to myself,"I have a plan, and I'm just fine on my own. But it can't hurt."
Well it turned out my "plan" was ridiculous and failed miserably! I know a guy that is eating protein bars for breakfast and lunch instead of his used to be fast food regime. Well, I have been trying it for about 5 or 6 weeks. In that time I have had many issues, the worst is chronic migraines. My head has hurt me nearly every single day, and I just could not get rid of it. It never occurred to me that my body is not as optimally functional as his, so it didn't recognise my protein bars as real food. By dinner time I was so STARVED I wanted to eat everything in sight. But for 6 weeks I persevered, believing eventually it would pay off.
Yesterday, after 7 weeks of trying to lose weight, and only keeping 1.8lbs off, I was fed up with this concept. It's just not paying off, oh, and it's making me sick too! So not worth it.
I got on Facebook last night and finally responded back to my friend. She told me that she had told her other friend about me and that I should contact her. I had already come to the conclusion that I am totally and utterly lost here on my own. So I sent Jae, my new consultant a facebook message. Today she got back to me!
I have never been so excited in my life about weight loss! Or making changes in my life style, habits, and attitude. I can't wait to get started, and I'm not keeping another protein bar stocked in my cabinet as a meal ever again!
My body is very good and preventing starvation. At even the slightest appearance that I'm not giving it what it needs everything just gets stored as fat. I feel like I've already lost most of the stress related to my weight, and trying to lose it. I'm not alone anymore! I don't have to try and figure it out for myself, searching through useless articles online, asking questions of others in the same situation instead of an expert.
Oh and one other thing, she has tested the program herself! She knows what it is like to feel like who you really are is hidden inside this body thats not the way it's supposed to be. I've always thought this was funny, but maybe there's something to it. When I dream, and I see myself in dreams I am always slim and beautiful, the way that I want to be when I'm awake.
The best part of all this, I finally believe that my goals are attainable, and I WILL attain them.
A few words of gratitude...Thank you to God, for knowing what I needed and sending me help! Thank you to Tiffany for listening and putting me in touch with Jae! And finally Thank you to Jae for doing something this amazing for me, and giving me hope!
My before pictures...they are atrocious, but I will never again look like this in a photo!
Well it turned out my "plan" was ridiculous and failed miserably! I know a guy that is eating protein bars for breakfast and lunch instead of his used to be fast food regime. Well, I have been trying it for about 5 or 6 weeks. In that time I have had many issues, the worst is chronic migraines. My head has hurt me nearly every single day, and I just could not get rid of it. It never occurred to me that my body is not as optimally functional as his, so it didn't recognise my protein bars as real food. By dinner time I was so STARVED I wanted to eat everything in sight. But for 6 weeks I persevered, believing eventually it would pay off.
Yesterday, after 7 weeks of trying to lose weight, and only keeping 1.8lbs off, I was fed up with this concept. It's just not paying off, oh, and it's making me sick too! So not worth it.
I got on Facebook last night and finally responded back to my friend. She told me that she had told her other friend about me and that I should contact her. I had already come to the conclusion that I am totally and utterly lost here on my own. So I sent Jae, my new consultant a facebook message. Today she got back to me!
I have never been so excited in my life about weight loss! Or making changes in my life style, habits, and attitude. I can't wait to get started, and I'm not keeping another protein bar stocked in my cabinet as a meal ever again!
My body is very good and preventing starvation. At even the slightest appearance that I'm not giving it what it needs everything just gets stored as fat. I feel like I've already lost most of the stress related to my weight, and trying to lose it. I'm not alone anymore! I don't have to try and figure it out for myself, searching through useless articles online, asking questions of others in the same situation instead of an expert.
Oh and one other thing, she has tested the program herself! She knows what it is like to feel like who you really are is hidden inside this body thats not the way it's supposed to be. I've always thought this was funny, but maybe there's something to it. When I dream, and I see myself in dreams I am always slim and beautiful, the way that I want to be when I'm awake.
The best part of all this, I finally believe that my goals are attainable, and I WILL attain them.
A few words of gratitude...Thank you to God, for knowing what I needed and sending me help! Thank you to Tiffany for listening and putting me in touch with Jae! And finally Thank you to Jae for doing something this amazing for me, and giving me hope!
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
I'm Lazy, yep! But not after today!
So, I decided I'm being a little lax in some ways, and a little crazy in others. My old goal sheet was just crazy, asking way too much of myself. I got overwhelmed, I couldn't keep up cause the changes were too fast, and I quit. I started telling myself "tomorrow I will do it". So I changed my goal sheet, I'm only taking on one month at a time, and here is what it looks like.
I've also had one other thing in my line of thinking that has changed in a way that I think is significant. I had been doing a food journal and I was successfully losing weight. Then I got lazy. This time I didn't put it in my plan, and well, things are not working all that well. So I am putting it back in my plan. Only I am using a website that I have used in the past which has lots of great tracking tools. sparkpeople.com
I took the time to put what I have eaten so far today into the system. The reason I decided to do this is because I was talking to my Mom a few days ago and she said something that I didn't like, but it stuck. She said the RN at her healthy lifestyles clinic told her that the people he sees that have success do one key thing, they keep a record of what they eat. His rule is, "if you bite it, you write it." UGH more work! That's what I thought at the time. I can't, thats another thought I had. Here's my attitude adjustment. I do believe I can lose this weight, and never find it again. So why don't I believe I can do something so simple as put what I ate into a log? hmmmm cause I'm lazy! Well, time to not be lazy anymore. I added tracking my food on SparkPeople to my list of goals.
Mini goal- Lose 5 Lbs in February.
Starting Weight: 214.0 lbs
Goal Weight: 209.0 lbs
Next Weigh In Feb 6th.
I can do this! I can't wait to work on my goals and see where this new attitude takes me!
Goals! February 2011
1. Get up at 7:15am Monday-Friday, do 30 min of exercise each morning, 3-5 days per week. Options: walk Jabber Jane, Yoga video, Kinect Game, Other exercise video. Total possible workouts of: 15-20, 450min- 600min.
2. Walk Jabber Jane (my dog)to Oakwood and back every Saturday. 4 times, 1.3 miles each.
3. Track my eating habits every day on SparkPeople.com (LynaeG, Shawn28)
4. Weigh in every Sunday morning.
5. Take my measurements on 14th Feb and 28th Feb (Mondays)
6. Drink a minimum of 64 oz of water per day. 2 newks cups (32 oz cup that I got at Newks Restaurant-they give them to you), or 4 regular glasses.
7. Eat my protein bars for breakfast & lunch at least five days a week. Snacks at 10:30am, and 3pm must be healthy (fruits/veg).
8. Read my Scriptures every single day. Preferably in the morning, or when I have spare time at work.
9. Pray over all my food!
10. Write in my blog at least once a week.
11. Remember that FOOD IS NOT THE ANSWER FOR STRESS!
12. If I EAT it I WRITE it!
13. Mini goal-lose 5lbs this month!
ULTIMATE: 145 lbs!
I've also had one other thing in my line of thinking that has changed in a way that I think is significant. I had been doing a food journal and I was successfully losing weight. Then I got lazy. This time I didn't put it in my plan, and well, things are not working all that well. So I am putting it back in my plan. Only I am using a website that I have used in the past which has lots of great tracking tools. sparkpeople.com
I took the time to put what I have eaten so far today into the system. The reason I decided to do this is because I was talking to my Mom a few days ago and she said something that I didn't like, but it stuck. She said the RN at her healthy lifestyles clinic told her that the people he sees that have success do one key thing, they keep a record of what they eat. His rule is, "if you bite it, you write it." UGH more work! That's what I thought at the time. I can't, thats another thought I had. Here's my attitude adjustment. I do believe I can lose this weight, and never find it again. So why don't I believe I can do something so simple as put what I ate into a log? hmmmm cause I'm lazy! Well, time to not be lazy anymore. I added tracking my food on SparkPeople to my list of goals.
Mini goal- Lose 5 Lbs in February.
Starting Weight: 214.0 lbs
Goal Weight: 209.0 lbs
Next Weigh In Feb 6th.
I can do this! I can't wait to work on my goals and see where this new attitude takes me!
mm mm mm Doritos!
Over the last couple of weeks I have had some successes, but I've hit some challenges as well.
Success:
This week I had a loss of 1.8lbs on the scale, I'm back to 214lb.
I'm feeling good, and I've gotten back in the habit of drinking all my water.
I am eating pretty healthy meals, while still apeasing my hubby's preferences. I am opting to put my chicken fingers in the oven instead of in the fry daddy. Or my chicken quesadillas in the oven instead of a skillet with oil. I did not eat a French Bread Pizza with him last night.
The measurements of my waist has gone down. My arms went up, not sure how the worked out but it did.
Here's the one I am most excited about! I mentioned previously buying a belt, well about a week ago I bought a pair of size 16 Levi's. I put the belt in them last week and instead of the second hole, I found the 4th! I am so excited to be using the 4th hole in my belt instead of the second!
Now for my Challenges.
Bingeing. That's a word I don't like to think about, and haven't really admitted to either. On Sunday I arrived home from church, I was hungry. I had and orange, and a couple of other healthy choices. Then my husbands food was ready, a plate of cocktail weenies, and some fritos with cheese dip. I ate 3 bowls of chips, one of doritos and two of fritos. I enjoyed both spinach dip, and salsa.
A little background, I got married to an American, and we decided that we needed to live where he is from in Alabama. We have suffered through immigration proceedings, waiting, paying fees, and further stress for nearly two years now. It's exhausting, and the stress is unbelievable. I feel like these strangers have my life, my marriage, and my future all in their hands. That said, yesterday I got an email from the National Visa Center, that is currently handling our petition asking for me to file another form. Which in turn requires me to file my husbands taxes for 2010. I was very stressed because our important papers were not filed. I knew there was just a pile on a shelf in the closet I would have to sift through. I did end up getting all that sorted and filed. And I felt better for awhile, but then I started thinking about the ordeal of filing my husbands taxes in a few hours. I started for feel hungry and then a little shaky. So what snack did I reach for? Doritos, I'm honestly not sure how big of a serving I had, but I know it was way too much!
Last night while I worked on taxes from 6:30pm until nearly 11pm, including being on hold with the IRS for over an hour, I did not snack! I wanted to, but I resisted. I still don't think I made up for how I ate earlier, but I am trying.
My other challenge, I haven't been exercising in the morning. I want to, but I'm so tired, stressed, and in the mornings my body hurts. I got some yoga programs saved to my netflix, but I haven't tried them yet. I'm hoping to have a better handle on this in a few days. I'm still trying, I did walk for a little over a mile on saturday just because it was nice out.
Success:
This week I had a loss of 1.8lbs on the scale, I'm back to 214lb.
I'm feeling good, and I've gotten back in the habit of drinking all my water.
I am eating pretty healthy meals, while still apeasing my hubby's preferences. I am opting to put my chicken fingers in the oven instead of in the fry daddy. Or my chicken quesadillas in the oven instead of a skillet with oil. I did not eat a French Bread Pizza with him last night.
The measurements of my waist has gone down. My arms went up, not sure how the worked out but it did.
Here's the one I am most excited about! I mentioned previously buying a belt, well about a week ago I bought a pair of size 16 Levi's. I put the belt in them last week and instead of the second hole, I found the 4th! I am so excited to be using the 4th hole in my belt instead of the second!
Now for my Challenges.
Bingeing. That's a word I don't like to think about, and haven't really admitted to either. On Sunday I arrived home from church, I was hungry. I had and orange, and a couple of other healthy choices. Then my husbands food was ready, a plate of cocktail weenies, and some fritos with cheese dip. I ate 3 bowls of chips, one of doritos and two of fritos. I enjoyed both spinach dip, and salsa.
A little background, I got married to an American, and we decided that we needed to live where he is from in Alabama. We have suffered through immigration proceedings, waiting, paying fees, and further stress for nearly two years now. It's exhausting, and the stress is unbelievable. I feel like these strangers have my life, my marriage, and my future all in their hands. That said, yesterday I got an email from the National Visa Center, that is currently handling our petition asking for me to file another form. Which in turn requires me to file my husbands taxes for 2010. I was very stressed because our important papers were not filed. I knew there was just a pile on a shelf in the closet I would have to sift through. I did end up getting all that sorted and filed. And I felt better for awhile, but then I started thinking about the ordeal of filing my husbands taxes in a few hours. I started for feel hungry and then a little shaky. So what snack did I reach for? Doritos, I'm honestly not sure how big of a serving I had, but I know it was way too much!
Last night while I worked on taxes from 6:30pm until nearly 11pm, including being on hold with the IRS for over an hour, I did not snack! I wanted to, but I resisted. I still don't think I made up for how I ate earlier, but I am trying.
My other challenge, I haven't been exercising in the morning. I want to, but I'm so tired, stressed, and in the mornings my body hurts. I got some yoga programs saved to my netflix, but I haven't tried them yet. I'm hoping to have a better handle on this in a few days. I'm still trying, I did walk for a little over a mile on saturday just because it was nice out.
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
WI & Measurement Monday!
Last week was a difficult one for me, for one reason or another things just did not go right. The water tasted bad so I didn't get to complete that goal. My pain problems spiked and I had difficulty completeing my exercise. I gave in to temptation and ate most of the candy my parents sent to me for Christmas. There is plenty of Macintosh toffee left, but I'm not interested at the moment. Maybe because of my Weigh In. Oh I also gave in and drank two cans of Mountain Dew on Saturday, I KNOW that didn't help!
WI stats
New Weight: 215.4
Gain: 2.4 lbs
To go: 70.4 lbs
Here is my theory, most of that is retained water. That's what I am thinking, because in the last two weeks I still lost inches. I lost 3.75" in the last 2 weeks. Which brings me into my first inches mini goal (10-13" lost), I haven't decided if I will reward myself now or wait another two weeks and see how I do. I'm leaning towards now just because it was such a difficult week last week. And I've decided that I want to get myself a new pair of shoes! Shoe depot has a 50% off sale right now, how can I pass it up when I have such a great excuse?
Good news is that I am getting back on track with my water goals, and food goals. We have had company sleeping on our couch since last Friday, so I haven't exercised in the morning. I am hoping to do so tomorrow, and we'll see how a fitness class goes.
Overall I do feel pretty good, encouraged even, to keep working and keep striving. The other day I had to buy a belt to keep my size 18petite jeans on. I bought a 2x belt, but I can have to do it up in the second notch in order to keep it on as well LOL. I thought it was funny that in the first notch I could still pull my pants all the way down. It's a good thing, and I can't wait until I'm using the 3rd notch! And when I need it tighter than the last notch I am celebrating! And I think I will keep the belt to remind me of how far I have really come.
Measurement stats:
Bust (old 47")- new 44.75"= 2.25"!
Waist (42) -new 40.5"= 1.5"
Belly Button (49)-new 47"= 2"
Hips (51)-new 49.75"= 1.25"
Right Thigh (25) - new 23.75"=1.25"
Left Thigh (24.25)- new 23.25"= 1"
Right Arm (14)-new 13.25"=0.75"
Left Arm (13.5)- 12.75"= 0.75"
I think that speaks for itself. It's only been 4 weeks of goals and changes, those are some really important results!
WI stats
New Weight: 215.4
Gain: 2.4 lbs
To go: 70.4 lbs
Here is my theory, most of that is retained water. That's what I am thinking, because in the last two weeks I still lost inches. I lost 3.75" in the last 2 weeks. Which brings me into my first inches mini goal (10-13" lost), I haven't decided if I will reward myself now or wait another two weeks and see how I do. I'm leaning towards now just because it was such a difficult week last week. And I've decided that I want to get myself a new pair of shoes! Shoe depot has a 50% off sale right now, how can I pass it up when I have such a great excuse?
Good news is that I am getting back on track with my water goals, and food goals. We have had company sleeping on our couch since last Friday, so I haven't exercised in the morning. I am hoping to do so tomorrow, and we'll see how a fitness class goes.
Overall I do feel pretty good, encouraged even, to keep working and keep striving. The other day I had to buy a belt to keep my size 18petite jeans on. I bought a 2x belt, but I can have to do it up in the second notch in order to keep it on as well LOL. I thought it was funny that in the first notch I could still pull my pants all the way down. It's a good thing, and I can't wait until I'm using the 3rd notch! And when I need it tighter than the last notch I am celebrating! And I think I will keep the belt to remind me of how far I have really come.
Measurement stats:
Bust (old 47")- new 44.75"= 2.25"!
Waist (42) -new 40.5"= 1.5"
Belly Button (49)-new 47"= 2"
Hips (51)-new 49.75"= 1.25"
Right Thigh (25) - new 23.75"=1.25"
Left Thigh (24.25)- new 23.25"= 1"
Right Arm (14)-new 13.25"=0.75"
Left Arm (13.5)- 12.75"= 0.75"
I think that speaks for itself. It's only been 4 weeks of goals and changes, those are some really important results!
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Your Shape-Very Annoyed
I have problems! I was super excited about the idea of a better work out program. We got the Xbox Kinect sensor, and I bought Your Shape: Fitness Evolved. I've been using it for a total of 7 work outs now. I am so frustrated that I'm not even looking forward to doing it tomorrow. I've been using the personal trainer option, and I'm finding that there is no obvious rhythm to the music your supposed to follow, and I have serious issues staying in rhythm with the trainer. That means that I average somewhere around 60% a routine. That irritates the heck out of me, and makes me want to quit. I'm standing there doing my best and not getting credit for all of my hard work.
I think it's time to try a different section of the game. I'm going to give the fitness classes, or the gym games a chance. Maybe a day of cardio boxing and then a day of yoga, then we'll see what else there is. It is also a little frustrating that it only came with the most basic of fitness classes. Most of the ones listed I have to buy the add-on for. That is annoying!
I am wishing that I had more space, so I could have work out equipment in my apartment instead of messing with these gaming systems. When we buy a house one of those spare bedrooms is going to be a workout room with a tredmill, bike, weights and probably a TV and DVD player for yoga and other workout dvd's. So I can have some variety without continually having to buy the add-ons. VERY ANNOYED!
I Miss my Wii! This is not working at all the way I had hoped it would. I was bored with my one workout game for Wii, but I could have gotten more. Ugh, this sucks! But I am hoping that maybe as I get into shape I will get better at this, and I will be more coordinated.
Any tips on how to make this work better?
I think it's time to try a different section of the game. I'm going to give the fitness classes, or the gym games a chance. Maybe a day of cardio boxing and then a day of yoga, then we'll see what else there is. It is also a little frustrating that it only came with the most basic of fitness classes. Most of the ones listed I have to buy the add-on for. That is annoying!
I am wishing that I had more space, so I could have work out equipment in my apartment instead of messing with these gaming systems. When we buy a house one of those spare bedrooms is going to be a workout room with a tredmill, bike, weights and probably a TV and DVD player for yoga and other workout dvd's. So I can have some variety without continually having to buy the add-ons. VERY ANNOYED!
I Miss my Wii! This is not working at all the way I had hoped it would. I was bored with my one workout game for Wii, but I could have gotten more. Ugh, this sucks! But I am hoping that maybe as I get into shape I will get better at this, and I will be more coordinated.
Any tips on how to make this work better?
Week 3: WI
My Weigh In for week 3! I was pretty happy when I got on the scale and I had another loss! That's three weeks in a row with losses. Down 0.6 pounds! Not a lot, but a whole lot better than gaining, or staying the same. I'm really happy with it.
In three weeks I have lost 2.6 pounds, which has been over holidays and events.
I also completed my goals for last week!
I drank 64 oz of water or more each day!
I got up at 7:30am!
I exercised for 20 min each day!
I am feeling pretty good about myself and my goals. Something I did adjust is my ultimate goal for what time to get up in the morning. It went from 6:30 am to 7:00 am. This week I started my 7:15am goal, and it is hard! I realized that 6:30 is going to be brutal and might be a breaking point for me. So I sat down and made a time schedule for my morning. So I know just exactly how much time I need for my routine in the morning.
7:00 am is when I absolutely must get started. I've also decided that 5 days is not enough time anymore for me to adjust to my changing schedule. I will do 7:15am for three weeks, and then 7:00am. I'm also not in good enough shape to manage a full 30 min of my Kinect Your Shape: Fitness Evolved. So I have new goals, to be more reasonable and set myself up for success!
Stats
Weigh in- 213 pounds
Total Loss- 2.6 pounds!
To first mini goal- 8 pounds!
To final goal- 68 pounds!
Total Fat Calories burned- 9100!
In three weeks I have lost 2.6 pounds, which has been over holidays and events.
I also completed my goals for last week!
I drank 64 oz of water or more each day!
I got up at 7:30am!
I exercised for 20 min each day!
I am feeling pretty good about myself and my goals. Something I did adjust is my ultimate goal for what time to get up in the morning. It went from 6:30 am to 7:00 am. This week I started my 7:15am goal, and it is hard! I realized that 6:30 is going to be brutal and might be a breaking point for me. So I sat down and made a time schedule for my morning. So I know just exactly how much time I need for my routine in the morning.
7:00 am is when I absolutely must get started. I've also decided that 5 days is not enough time anymore for me to adjust to my changing schedule. I will do 7:15am for three weeks, and then 7:00am. I'm also not in good enough shape to manage a full 30 min of my Kinect Your Shape: Fitness Evolved. So I have new goals, to be more reasonable and set myself up for success!
Stats
Weigh in- 213 pounds
Total Loss- 2.6 pounds!
To first mini goal- 8 pounds!
To final goal- 68 pounds!
Total Fat Calories burned- 9100!
Friday, January 7, 2011
My 70 Pound Monster:Fat!: Why Monster?
My 70 Pound Monster:Fat!: Why Monster?: "So, I've realized that some of my posts may have sounded like I'm being overly hard on myself. Or made it look like I think negatively about..."
Why Monster?
So, I've realized that some of my posts may have sounded like I'm being overly hard on myself. Or made it look like I think negatively about myself. I'm not going to say that my thoughts about myself, particularly my body are always positive, that would be lieing. I've come to realize that even a person with an ideal weight has things about their body they aren't happy with, no one is without insecurities. Some of us just have more than others. But just to clarify, I do NOT hate myself, or my body.
Now that I've said that, why did I decide to call my blog "My 70 Pound Monster"? Well, because those extra 70 or so pounds on my body, feel like a monster in my life. It's the day to day things like not being able to find clothes that both fit and make me feel good. It's the wear and tear on some of my clothes having to stretch and support and cover the extra weight. I have some clothing that is actually painful to wear, and I have no choice but to wear it. And the monster part also refers to the feeling that a cloud is hanging over head. It's called Heart Disease, there are more clouds for diabetes, arthritis, hip replacement/knee replacement, infertility, and the list goes on. I'm sick and tired of living with the question "Is that in my future?" I already have enough health problems, including hypothyroidism, Irritable Bowel Syndrome, Fibromyalgia, and yes infertility.
This is a big deal for me to admit, it's one of the hardest things I've ever had to face. And it is my Number One motivator. I've done research and I truely believe that a big part of my fertility problems are related to my being overweight, or actually according to BMI in the obese category. Why can some women who out weigh me by a lot have children? I don't know, our bodies are different, my system is apparently more sensitive to my weight, and my over all physical condition. I truely believe that I have been given the motivation to change by God. And if I can control my appetites, and beat my desire to be lazy then I might be able to change that diagnosis. I know it won't be easy, but I ask myself "Do I want the lifestyle that is easy, that got me in the physical condition I am in today, or do I want children?" That is the biggest reason this 70 pounds of extra weight is a monster to me. It could stand in the way of something that I have wanted my whole life, to be a Mom. If I do this and my husband and I still need to adopt then two things will happen. 1. I will know I did everything in my power to make it possible to have our own, and it is God's will. and 2. My children will have a healthy and strong Mother, who can teach them healthy habits to take care of their bodies and have healthy lives.
That is why I am doing this. It's not about thinking I am ugly, and I won't be beautiful until I'm a size 6. And it's not about being hard on myself. It's about doing all I can do to avoid the nightmare of infertility my Doctors told me I would deal with a year and a half ago. It's about taking responsibility for myself and how I feel. And it feels good to be this honest, even if no one reads it, even if I've just put it out there into cyberspace and it's lost forever. I am doing this blog for me, so I am honest with myself about my whole journey, my life, all of it. I do hope that this might help someone else, even one person would be more than worth it. The journey of weight loss, and maintaining your goal is not impossible. Even for those of us with medical conditions that have these labels, the ones that say "cause weight gain" or symptom is "weight gain". We are not bound by these limitations and labels.
P.S. to the dear person that told me I was beautiful the way I am, and not to be hard on myself. Thank you! You made me think a little deeper, and I really needed to do that. I feel like a weight has been lifted from me heart after writing this. xoxoxo
Now that I've said that, why did I decide to call my blog "My 70 Pound Monster"? Well, because those extra 70 or so pounds on my body, feel like a monster in my life. It's the day to day things like not being able to find clothes that both fit and make me feel good. It's the wear and tear on some of my clothes having to stretch and support and cover the extra weight. I have some clothing that is actually painful to wear, and I have no choice but to wear it. And the monster part also refers to the feeling that a cloud is hanging over head. It's called Heart Disease, there are more clouds for diabetes, arthritis, hip replacement/knee replacement, infertility, and the list goes on. I'm sick and tired of living with the question "Is that in my future?" I already have enough health problems, including hypothyroidism, Irritable Bowel Syndrome, Fibromyalgia, and yes infertility.
This is a big deal for me to admit, it's one of the hardest things I've ever had to face. And it is my Number One motivator. I've done research and I truely believe that a big part of my fertility problems are related to my being overweight, or actually according to BMI in the obese category. Why can some women who out weigh me by a lot have children? I don't know, our bodies are different, my system is apparently more sensitive to my weight, and my over all physical condition. I truely believe that I have been given the motivation to change by God. And if I can control my appetites, and beat my desire to be lazy then I might be able to change that diagnosis. I know it won't be easy, but I ask myself "Do I want the lifestyle that is easy, that got me in the physical condition I am in today, or do I want children?" That is the biggest reason this 70 pounds of extra weight is a monster to me. It could stand in the way of something that I have wanted my whole life, to be a Mom. If I do this and my husband and I still need to adopt then two things will happen. 1. I will know I did everything in my power to make it possible to have our own, and it is God's will. and 2. My children will have a healthy and strong Mother, who can teach them healthy habits to take care of their bodies and have healthy lives.
That is why I am doing this. It's not about thinking I am ugly, and I won't be beautiful until I'm a size 6. And it's not about being hard on myself. It's about doing all I can do to avoid the nightmare of infertility my Doctors told me I would deal with a year and a half ago. It's about taking responsibility for myself and how I feel. And it feels good to be this honest, even if no one reads it, even if I've just put it out there into cyberspace and it's lost forever. I am doing this blog for me, so I am honest with myself about my whole journey, my life, all of it. I do hope that this might help someone else, even one person would be more than worth it. The journey of weight loss, and maintaining your goal is not impossible. Even for those of us with medical conditions that have these labels, the ones that say "cause weight gain" or symptom is "weight gain". We are not bound by these limitations and labels.
P.S. to the dear person that told me I was beautiful the way I am, and not to be hard on myself. Thank you! You made me think a little deeper, and I really needed to do that. I feel like a weight has been lifted from me heart after writing this. xoxoxo
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Reality check, goals, and progress!
Tonight I have a lot on my mind. I feel pumped, I've made progress right away. I have a new morning routine thats healthy and all about me, taking care of my body, and remembering that I am important too. I've felt great that in 3 weeks I am now getting up a full hour earlier than I was before, I am now exercising 20 min in the morning, I drink 64oz of water or more a day, and I'm enjoying healthy food.
However the other day I had a reality check, a real wake up call. I'm glad I had it nearly three weeks after I started new goals and recentered my attitude. It was rude, I got really angry, and somewhere hidden inside I was a little hurt too. A new neighbor eyed me as I was leaving our little chat at the mail boxes and she said "you havin' a baby er somethin'?" It took me a moment to recover from the shock, I said a very quiet no, and continued on my way. As time went on and I was preparing for dinner that evening I got more and more angry. I called my sister to vent, she agreed with my outrage, she's a great sister. I posted on facebook, on my status, and in my weightloss group. I got a lot of support and encouraging messages. That was all great, the support was amazing, and knowing there are so many women out there that know what it is like to be at the end of such rudeness and thoughtlessness.
Here is what I have learned. Reality check, my waist is 41", my hips 50". I'm carrying a whole lot of my weight in my middle, I always have. I lived my life in such a way that my body was neglected. I didn't give my body the tools it needed to function at an optimum level. Not enough exercise, not enough water, not enough high quality nutrition, too much junk food and empty calories, too much sitting around, or laying in bed. Too many excuses for not getting up and working out, something as simple as going for a walk. I always have an excuse, I'm too tired, I hurt too much, I don't have the time, there is too much cleaning to do, I don't feel like it. Gotta love that last one, I got lazy in coming up with excuses for being lazy. So my reality, it's my fault I look like I could be pregnant. It's my fault that I have a goal that involves losingsome 70 lbs. It's that woman's fault for being rude, but it's not her fault that my body looks such that someone could make the mistake.
So who should I really be mad at? Me? No. I say no because, while it is my fault, and my problem, that is not productive. It would likely only add to the difficulty of what I am working for. I have plans, and I so badly want this, I'm determined, and I'm committed. That to me says: "Things have changed". Something in my thinking changed, something in my attitude changed. I stopped just feeling sorry for myself, and actually sat down to devise the path I need to take to make my goals a reality. I've known what I needed to do for quite some time now. But I didn't WANT to. Why? I didn't want to give up my sleep. I know that sounds silly, but I'm a person who does not sleep well, in fact I never really have. I've gone to multiple doctors about my sleeping problems. I AM tired ALL the time to varying degrees. So that hour of sleep I have given up already is pretty precious. And the extra hour I am going to be giving up over the next 4 weeks is equally as precious. I know it will be hard, I know I will struggle. But I have realized that as I lose the weight the hours that I do sleep for will be worth more to me in the long run. Eventually the "tired all the time" will wear off. I will begin to have energy again. Maybe it will take 10 pounds, maybe it will take 20 pounds, maybe more. But when I get to that point where I can sleep for more than 2 hours at a time, it will be glorious!
Achieving my goals is a big motivator for me. Seeing my progress is also another big motivator, loss of inches and pounds. Slowly getting closer to a healthy BMI, and a slimmer me, priceless. But I know I will have bad days, rough weeks, and many challenges along the way. One of my big goals is to complete each of my 2 month goals through the whole year. To not miss any exercise days (unless very ill), to not miss a single day without my 64 oz of water. 1 year of that, I will be a new me! To get me through the rough times I have a rewards system. I get rewards at certain points in multiple categories. Inches lost, certain weights, certain BMI, percents of my goal completed (10, 25, 50, 75), and I'm thinking at the end of each of my 2 month goal sheets. So far I have completed everything on my current goal sheet. And in some things exceeded my own expectations! I have 1 rule, none of my rewards can be food. I think they will mostly be clothing. Maybe jewelry, or something else I want. I think the reward point I will reach soonest is my first inches lost goal which is 10-13 inches lost! I am at 7 inches lost. I can't wait until the next week I measure.
I plan to post each Friday to report on my completed goals for that week. This morning getting up at 7:30 was hard, really hard. I almost didn't do it, nearly fell back asleep in the bathroom. But I made it to the living room and my YourShape on the xbox kinect. It is definitely a challenging workout so far. I'm using the personal trainer, and I'm seeing improvements even over the last 4 days. I have better coordination to follow the trainer, and I went from 30 cals burned on my second day (first day didn't get through my profile and tutorials) to 52 cals burned today. I can't wait until I have a full 45 mins to exercise.
Oh, and a side note. The size 18P jeans I bought a few weeks ago are falling off me. I walked up the hill in front of our apartment several times this morning. I had to hang on to them. Too much movement and they just start sliding down. That is exciting to me! I need to get a belt of some kind because my size 16P will not yet fit me. I just might crochet myself a belt.
Well that is where my head is at tonight. Like I said a lot to think about, and a lot to be excited about too!
However the other day I had a reality check, a real wake up call. I'm glad I had it nearly three weeks after I started new goals and recentered my attitude. It was rude, I got really angry, and somewhere hidden inside I was a little hurt too. A new neighbor eyed me as I was leaving our little chat at the mail boxes and she said "you havin' a baby er somethin'?" It took me a moment to recover from the shock, I said a very quiet no, and continued on my way. As time went on and I was preparing for dinner that evening I got more and more angry. I called my sister to vent, she agreed with my outrage, she's a great sister. I posted on facebook, on my status, and in my weightloss group. I got a lot of support and encouraging messages. That was all great, the support was amazing, and knowing there are so many women out there that know what it is like to be at the end of such rudeness and thoughtlessness.
Here is what I have learned. Reality check, my waist is 41", my hips 50". I'm carrying a whole lot of my weight in my middle, I always have. I lived my life in such a way that my body was neglected. I didn't give my body the tools it needed to function at an optimum level. Not enough exercise, not enough water, not enough high quality nutrition, too much junk food and empty calories, too much sitting around, or laying in bed. Too many excuses for not getting up and working out, something as simple as going for a walk. I always have an excuse, I'm too tired, I hurt too much, I don't have the time, there is too much cleaning to do, I don't feel like it. Gotta love that last one, I got lazy in coming up with excuses for being lazy. So my reality, it's my fault I look like I could be pregnant. It's my fault that I have a goal that involves losingsome 70 lbs. It's that woman's fault for being rude, but it's not her fault that my body looks such that someone could make the mistake.
So who should I really be mad at? Me? No. I say no because, while it is my fault, and my problem, that is not productive. It would likely only add to the difficulty of what I am working for. I have plans, and I so badly want this, I'm determined, and I'm committed. That to me says: "Things have changed". Something in my thinking changed, something in my attitude changed. I stopped just feeling sorry for myself, and actually sat down to devise the path I need to take to make my goals a reality. I've known what I needed to do for quite some time now. But I didn't WANT to. Why? I didn't want to give up my sleep. I know that sounds silly, but I'm a person who does not sleep well, in fact I never really have. I've gone to multiple doctors about my sleeping problems. I AM tired ALL the time to varying degrees. So that hour of sleep I have given up already is pretty precious. And the extra hour I am going to be giving up over the next 4 weeks is equally as precious. I know it will be hard, I know I will struggle. But I have realized that as I lose the weight the hours that I do sleep for will be worth more to me in the long run. Eventually the "tired all the time" will wear off. I will begin to have energy again. Maybe it will take 10 pounds, maybe it will take 20 pounds, maybe more. But when I get to that point where I can sleep for more than 2 hours at a time, it will be glorious!
Achieving my goals is a big motivator for me. Seeing my progress is also another big motivator, loss of inches and pounds. Slowly getting closer to a healthy BMI, and a slimmer me, priceless. But I know I will have bad days, rough weeks, and many challenges along the way. One of my big goals is to complete each of my 2 month goals through the whole year. To not miss any exercise days (unless very ill), to not miss a single day without my 64 oz of water. 1 year of that, I will be a new me! To get me through the rough times I have a rewards system. I get rewards at certain points in multiple categories. Inches lost, certain weights, certain BMI, percents of my goal completed (10, 25, 50, 75), and I'm thinking at the end of each of my 2 month goal sheets. So far I have completed everything on my current goal sheet. And in some things exceeded my own expectations! I have 1 rule, none of my rewards can be food. I think they will mostly be clothing. Maybe jewelry, or something else I want. I think the reward point I will reach soonest is my first inches lost goal which is 10-13 inches lost! I am at 7 inches lost. I can't wait until the next week I measure.
I plan to post each Friday to report on my completed goals for that week. This morning getting up at 7:30 was hard, really hard. I almost didn't do it, nearly fell back asleep in the bathroom. But I made it to the living room and my YourShape on the xbox kinect. It is definitely a challenging workout so far. I'm using the personal trainer, and I'm seeing improvements even over the last 4 days. I have better coordination to follow the trainer, and I went from 30 cals burned on my second day (first day didn't get through my profile and tutorials) to 52 cals burned today. I can't wait until I have a full 45 mins to exercise.
Oh, and a side note. The size 18P jeans I bought a few weeks ago are falling off me. I walked up the hill in front of our apartment several times this morning. I had to hang on to them. Too much movement and they just start sliding down. That is exciting to me! I need to get a belt of some kind because my size 16P will not yet fit me. I just might crochet myself a belt.
Well that is where my head is at tonight. Like I said a lot to think about, and a lot to be excited about too!
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Visualize!
So, what has been the hardest part about setting a weight loss goal?
Asking myself what weight I should be, how do I know? First I used google and searched ideal weight for my height. I got some scary numbers, like 110-125lbs, I thought "I give up right now!" That is impossible for me, I've never been that thin, and I Never will be! I stopped for awhile, then I searched again, on more reputable sites. Medical sites and the like. The range I found was more imaginable, barely, but enough that I could try. 120-145 lbs. Okay 145 pounds, I could try and aim for that.
So I did some more googling, about weight loss and computer models etc. I found this website mvm.com (my virtual model). Of course it doesn't look exactly like me, but I was able to put in different specifications, including weight and see the difference between how I look now, and how I "will" look when I reach my goal.
I have printed those pictures and put them on my fridge, along with my Dec/Jan goals.
It's helping, and as I lose I can go make a new model and see the difference. It's a nice way to be able to visualize myself and my progress. Numbers, measurements, weigh in's, those are all fantastic and I love seeing those numbers improve. But the picture is just that extra step to helping me feel good about myself.
Asking myself what weight I should be, how do I know? First I used google and searched ideal weight for my height. I got some scary numbers, like 110-125lbs, I thought "I give up right now!" That is impossible for me, I've never been that thin, and I Never will be! I stopped for awhile, then I searched again, on more reputable sites. Medical sites and the like. The range I found was more imaginable, barely, but enough that I could try. 120-145 lbs. Okay 145 pounds, I could try and aim for that. The first thing I did was draw a big 145 and post it on my fridge. That helped, but I still couldn't imagine what I would look like at a weight that low. I tried to do some searches about weights and clothing sizes, but I didn't have much luck. It was sort of helpful, I got something like a medium or size 8-10 ish. But I still could not picture what my body would look like.
I have always been a little different as proportions go. When my Mother used to sew dresses of skirts for me they always needed alterations. Some places would be too tight while others too loose, all within this same "size". It always frustrated me. So I did some more googling, about weight loss and computer models etc. I found this website mvm.com (my virtual model). Of course it doesn't look exactly like me, but I was able to put in different specifications, including weight and see the difference between how I look now, and how I "will" look when I reach my goal.
I have printed those pictures and put them on my fridge, along with my Dec/Jan goals.
It's helping, and as I lose I can go make a new model and see the difference. It's a nice way to be able to visualize myself and my progress. Numbers, measurements, weigh in's, those are all fantastic and I love seeing those numbers improve. But the picture is just that extra step to helping me feel good about myself. Seeing that difference every day, how could I ever give up? Knowing how much healthier I will be, how much less my body will hurt, how much easier it will be to find clothing.
Monday, January 3, 2011
Measurement Monday!
We all know that weighing in is an important aspect of tracking our progress. It helps us know each week how we've done. And it helps to know which habits are good and we should maintain and which are not good and we should work to eliminate or control.
There are lots of other ways of tracking, joining programs, sites, etc. Food journals where we track calories or points.
Here is my new invaluable tracking tool. Measurements! Two weeks ago when I started I took my measurements to get a baseline, my starting point. Now every second week, on Monday I take my measurements again. This is huge for me! And I wish I had done it my first go around last spring. It could have given me the extra boost I needed to keep motivated.
In the last two weeks I lost 7 inches off my body! That's huge! My scale loss of 2 pounds (lost 0.6 this week) did not reflect that, and I would have had no idea.
Here were my baseline measurements.
Bust: 47"
Waist: 42"
Belly button (it is the largest part of my middle, so I decided to measure around it too):49"
Hips:51"
Right thigh:25"
Left Thigh:24.25"
Right Upper Arm:25"
Left Upper Arm:24.25"
New Measurements!
Bust: 46", loss of 1"
Waist: 41", loss of 1"
Belly Button: 48", loss of 1"
Hips: 50", loss of 1"
Right Thigh: 23.75", loss of 1.25"
Left Thigh: 23.25", loss of 1"
Right Arm: 13.5", loss of 0.5"
Left Arm: 13.25", loss of 0.25"
It feels so good to know that what I have done has made a difference! It's also good to see my own reality. It's hard to live healthy and reach goals if you don't know where you started, and then where you are at. Huge Tip, If you want to change something about your life or yourself do not be afraid of reality!
I've spent most of my life fearing the scale, or any other measurement of my body. I simply did not want to know! That attitude is part of what got me where I am today. Fear does not enable progress, it holds us back and weighs us down (in my case literally). Courage, determination, and resolve are what I need to change my body and my habits. And yes, facing this reality does take courage.
It's not as if I was unaware of the state of my body, every mirror, every article of clothing, every shopping trip, every ache and pain. All of it reminded me of the state of my body. But going through life adapting, ignoring it, just making do, is not facing it. I feel better since I have taken measure of myself, it is liberating. I have freedom!
Stats:
213.6 pounds, loss of 0.6
68.6 pounds to go!
Total loss: 2.0 pounds
8lbs to first goal!
inches lost: 7!
3-6" to first goal!
There are lots of other ways of tracking, joining programs, sites, etc. Food journals where we track calories or points.
Here is my new invaluable tracking tool. Measurements! Two weeks ago when I started I took my measurements to get a baseline, my starting point. Now every second week, on Monday I take my measurements again. This is huge for me! And I wish I had done it my first go around last spring. It could have given me the extra boost I needed to keep motivated.
In the last two weeks I lost 7 inches off my body! That's huge! My scale loss of 2 pounds (lost 0.6 this week) did not reflect that, and I would have had no idea.
Here were my baseline measurements.
Bust: 47"
Waist: 42"
Belly button (it is the largest part of my middle, so I decided to measure around it too):49"
Hips:51"
Right thigh:25"
Left Thigh:24.25"
Right Upper Arm:25"
Left Upper Arm:24.25"
New Measurements!
Bust: 46", loss of 1"
Waist: 41", loss of 1"
Belly Button: 48", loss of 1"
Hips: 50", loss of 1"
Right Thigh: 23.75", loss of 1.25"
Left Thigh: 23.25", loss of 1"
Right Arm: 13.5", loss of 0.5"
Left Arm: 13.25", loss of 0.25"
It feels so good to know that what I have done has made a difference! It's also good to see my own reality. It's hard to live healthy and reach goals if you don't know where you started, and then where you are at. Huge Tip, If you want to change something about your life or yourself do not be afraid of reality!
I've spent most of my life fearing the scale, or any other measurement of my body. I simply did not want to know! That attitude is part of what got me where I am today. Fear does not enable progress, it holds us back and weighs us down (in my case literally). Courage, determination, and resolve are what I need to change my body and my habits. And yes, facing this reality does take courage.
It's not as if I was unaware of the state of my body, every mirror, every article of clothing, every shopping trip, every ache and pain. All of it reminded me of the state of my body. But going through life adapting, ignoring it, just making do, is not facing it. I feel better since I have taken measure of myself, it is liberating. I have freedom!
Stats:
213.6 pounds, loss of 0.6
68.6 pounds to go!
Total loss: 2.0 pounds
8lbs to first goal!
inches lost: 7!
3-6" to first goal!
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