My program has changed yet again! I now only weigh in once per week, on Friday mornings. Then on Friday I have a "cheat" day. I get to eat whatever I want to. At first this idea scared me a little, but I decided to trust my coach and give it a shot. Last Friday was my first "cheat"day, and I have not weighed in yet to find out the results. On Saturday and Sunday I will continue to do my detox which will really help me boost my fat burning.
This week has been crazy though, I spent 14+ hours at the hospital waiting room while my Father-In-Law had a triple by pass done. It was nerve wracking, but he did well! Of course we all know what hospital food is like, and the hours of waiting. I did bring a few things to snack on, whole grain muffins, sugar free candy, fruit. But our exploration of the cafeteria and food court was hugely disappointing. It was far too expensive. We ended up at pizza hut for dinner as it was a short walk away. I had a salad, 1 slice of pizza, 1 bread stick, and 1 scoop of pasta. WAY too much starch! But it is all that was available at the time. I am glad I did not over indulge. We did make an order for take out, my husband a p'zone and myself a chicken milano pasta. A couple of hours later I was hungry again and had a few bites. Most of it is now in my freezer waiting for lunch on Friday.
Unfortunately I have Irritable Bowel Syndrome. And for me that is extremely sensitive to stress, and when stressed food. I was feeling fine until we saw my Father-In-Law at the Cardiac ICU for the first time. He was doing so good, still asleep. But he looked so much better. Thats when I started to relax and began to feel the affects of my stress. I didn't realize I had been so anxious. I knew he would be okay eventually, so I wasn't really scared. However, I did not know what that journey would look like, or what he would have to go through to get to the point of being okay. Step 1 was making it through surgery with no complications! I am happy to say that is complete! Step 2 is recovery in the hospital. Admittedly I still feel some anxiety over that, but I have faith we will have him home on Sunday. I'm sure I will deal with a little of my IBS then as well. Step 3 will be his long term recovery, which I am trying not to worry about.
To add to my stress last weekend my apartment flooded due to another tenants leaky hot water heater. We were unable to get the carpet dry enough and now it is moldy. I am really concerned about my husbands allergies while we are waiting to have it replaced. But we have a great landlord and I'm sure it will be done by the end of this week.
So, to make up for my IBS and the food I ate yesterday I am going on my detox, just for today. I am starting to feel better already. And I'm looking forward to weigh in on Friday!
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Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Monday, April 4, 2011
Mini Goal 2 Report 5
This week was, well weird. I wasn't feeling well from Tuesday to Friday, and for whatever reason I'm one of those people who gets sick and gains weight. I didn't eat much, certainly not as much as I'm used to, but it messed with me anyway. I gained 1.6 pounds from Monday to Friday. I wasn't very happy about it, but I was determined to do something about it.
Over the weekend I did my 2 day detox as usual. I can't say that I overly enjoy doing the detox. I get a lot more hungry and I'm very tired of baked chicken. But over all it went very well. On Saturday I walked to the grocery store and did my shopping, and walked home with the groceries. It's not that bad, I push the cart home, and then it gets taken back to the store later. I managed to eat all 3 cucumbers that I bought, and some of the broccoli. I still can't make myself eat plain celery, so that is still in my fridge. I do have plans for the coming weekend's detox though. I bought a decent sized pork tenderloin, which I will season on Friday evening and put in the Crockpot over night. It will be a nice change to the dry baked chicken. I also plan to by myself a new flavour of Mrs.Dash. I've gotten very bored with lemon pepper and herb.
Now after I've said all of that my results were fantastic! I lost 3.2 pounds over the weekend, which brings me down into the 190's! I'm so excited about that I can hardly contain myself. It's been nearly 3 years since I have been in the 190's. At 198.4 lbs I am not quite on track with my mini goal, but I have big plans this week to catch up. I will continue with Jillian Michaels:30 day shred. Who is the trainer from both my dreams and nightmares. She is tough, motivating, and just a little scary. There is no way I can quit while doing one of her workouts, I'm convinced somehow she would know and knock on my door at 6:00am and then I would really pay for quitting! LOL yes that sounds completely crazy, but if you've ever done one of her workouts you know what I mean.
By next Monday my target weight is 195.4 lbs. Wow, that is just a little intimidating I must say. Since it means I need to lose 3 pounds this week to catch up. But I think if I stay on track, work hard, and make it through my weekend detox it can be done.
Last night I got to visit with my family over Kinect Video. It was wonderful to see them, even if it was just over the television screen. My father's cast is still very white, which is a shame, someone should sign it. My Mom looked great, but was very tired after working the early shift at work, which meant getting up at 5:30am. My sister was just too beautiful for words. I miss them all so much! The cool thing was they kept telling me how good I look. Part of that might be because they haven't seen me in a year and a half, and we haven't chatted on Kinect Video since Christmas. But they could definitely tell the difference that 17.4 pounds makes! It felt really good to have them notice and be so supportive, even being so far away what I am doing matters to them. That my friends, is what love and family are all about. We're only as far apart as what is in our hearts.
Stats time!
Week 4 of Mini Goal
Lost so far: 7.6 pounds
Left to Goal: 19.4 pounds
Weeks left: 8 including this week.
Ultimate Goal
Week 10
Total Lost: 17.4 pounds
Left to Goal: 53.4 pounds!
Over the weekend I did my 2 day detox as usual. I can't say that I overly enjoy doing the detox. I get a lot more hungry and I'm very tired of baked chicken. But over all it went very well. On Saturday I walked to the grocery store and did my shopping, and walked home with the groceries. It's not that bad, I push the cart home, and then it gets taken back to the store later. I managed to eat all 3 cucumbers that I bought, and some of the broccoli. I still can't make myself eat plain celery, so that is still in my fridge. I do have plans for the coming weekend's detox though. I bought a decent sized pork tenderloin, which I will season on Friday evening and put in the Crockpot over night. It will be a nice change to the dry baked chicken. I also plan to by myself a new flavour of Mrs.Dash. I've gotten very bored with lemon pepper and herb.
Now after I've said all of that my results were fantastic! I lost 3.2 pounds over the weekend, which brings me down into the 190's! I'm so excited about that I can hardly contain myself. It's been nearly 3 years since I have been in the 190's. At 198.4 lbs I am not quite on track with my mini goal, but I have big plans this week to catch up. I will continue with Jillian Michaels:30 day shred. Who is the trainer from both my dreams and nightmares. She is tough, motivating, and just a little scary. There is no way I can quit while doing one of her workouts, I'm convinced somehow she would know and knock on my door at 6:00am and then I would really pay for quitting! LOL yes that sounds completely crazy, but if you've ever done one of her workouts you know what I mean.
By next Monday my target weight is 195.4 lbs. Wow, that is just a little intimidating I must say. Since it means I need to lose 3 pounds this week to catch up. But I think if I stay on track, work hard, and make it through my weekend detox it can be done.
Last night I got to visit with my family over Kinect Video. It was wonderful to see them, even if it was just over the television screen. My father's cast is still very white, which is a shame, someone should sign it. My Mom looked great, but was very tired after working the early shift at work, which meant getting up at 5:30am. My sister was just too beautiful for words. I miss them all so much! The cool thing was they kept telling me how good I look. Part of that might be because they haven't seen me in a year and a half, and we haven't chatted on Kinect Video since Christmas. But they could definitely tell the difference that 17.4 pounds makes! It felt really good to have them notice and be so supportive, even being so far away what I am doing matters to them. That my friends, is what love and family are all about. We're only as far apart as what is in our hearts.
Stats time!
Week 4 of Mini Goal
Lost so far: 7.6 pounds
Left to Goal: 19.4 pounds
Weeks left: 8 including this week.
Ultimate Goal
Week 10
Total Lost: 17.4 pounds
Left to Goal: 53.4 pounds!
Friday, March 25, 2011
Mini Goal Report 3!
This morning's weigh in had me doing a little dance in the bathroom (where I keep my scale)! I lost 1 whole pound from Wednesday's weigh in! That is the first time I have lost that much, and had a loss at the previous weigh in. Every other time I've had a slight gain the WI before, and then a big loss. This time I got a small loss, 0.4 lbs, and then a big loss 1.0 lbs! It feels good to know that all my efforts are making a difference in my life, and I'm making progress towards my goal. I've lost a full 14 pounds in 8 weeks! This mini goal will have me with 36.8 pounds gone forever in 18 weeks. I just don't think it gets much better than that!
This morning I got up and tried the 10 Minute solution Kick box bootcamp workout. I got through the basic training, which was only the first ten minutes. I was pretty winded at that point, so I did not continue. But hopefully I will be vastly improving in my fitness over the next few weeks. Jillian Michaels: 30 Day Shred is on it's way to me from netflix right now. I'm really looking forward to doing it. I'll be honest and say I am a little intimidated, I've heard that it is really hard, and it will take me awhile to get the hang of it. Mostly due to the fact that my coordination at 7 something am is not too good. This morning I stubbled through a few parts, but I made the effort and I didn't get annoyed and quit at the first sign of klumsiness. Which has been my tendency with workout videos in the past.
Over the weekend I plan to walk the dog, or at least play with the dog outside. I have grocery shopping to do. And I am also starting my 2 day detox on Saturday morning! I'm really looking forward to my WI on Monday, where my target weight will be 200.0 lbs. I would love to exceed that, but will be happy if I'm just able to meet it.
Yesterday a friend who is aware of my efforts at losing weight, called me skinny girl. I was speechless, no one has ever used those words to describe me in my life. NEVER! It made me realize just how big of a difference 14 pounds has made in my appearance and how I feel about myself. I'm not quite at the point where I'm comfortable moving down a dress size, mostly because of how tight my current size was before I started losing weight. I think in the next 10 lbs or so all the clothes that I've been hanging on to, but have avoided trying on will be pulled out. And much of what I am wearing now will be removed from my wardrobe.
I've been looking back over the last few days and remembering how I used to look. When I was 175 lbs I still thought I was unbelievably fat, but I felt a lot better about myself because I knew I'd lost 25 lbs. I knew I looked better, but I didn't appreciate how much better. I think of when I was in the 180's and the 190's and I hated it, I was so disgusted with myself and now I can't wait to see what my 190's and then 180's body looks like. Until my 12th grade year I had not been on a scale since I was in the 6th grade. So in all that time I have no idea what I weighed when, and I know my body image was very skewed. That makes it really tough for me to visualise what I will be like at 170, 160, 150 and so on, until I reach my goal. I do know one thing, I want lean and firm muscles. And not just lean and firm abs, although that one might be the biggest challenge. But lean and firm thighs, butt, and arms. I want that general flabby feeling to be exercised out of this body.
I have a huge pet peeve, it's this statement. "weight is just a number." Who came up with something so incredibly wish washy and unhelpful a statement as that? It's an excuse only! It basically says,"don't worry about your weight, feel good about yourself no matter how you look or how healthy you are." Now who would actually come out and say that? Because we all know that how we feel about ourselves is directly connected to what we percieve our appearance to be. How we feel is directly connected to our health, it's hard to be positive and enjoy life if you have no energy or are facing heart disease, diabetes, joint break down, etc. Weight has a direct coorellation to our health, our self-image and body-image. Not to say that making our weight ideal will resolve all health issues, or all self/body image issues. But I do believe, that for the most part it makes it easier. The other key ingredient in feeling good about ourselves and being healthy is having the ability to be real and honest with ourselves without beating ourselves up, or being deraugatory. My weight was a lot easier to face when I started being honest with myself, at that point I was released from shame and embarassment. And I could just accept myself wherever I am in my life.
Stats time!
Mini goal week 2
Lost: 2.8 lbs so far
Left to Goal: 22.8
9 weeks left
Ultimate goal week 8
Lost: 14 lbs
Left to Goal:56.8lbs
This morning I got up and tried the 10 Minute solution Kick box bootcamp workout. I got through the basic training, which was only the first ten minutes. I was pretty winded at that point, so I did not continue. But hopefully I will be vastly improving in my fitness over the next few weeks. Jillian Michaels: 30 Day Shred is on it's way to me from netflix right now. I'm really looking forward to doing it. I'll be honest and say I am a little intimidated, I've heard that it is really hard, and it will take me awhile to get the hang of it. Mostly due to the fact that my coordination at 7 something am is not too good. This morning I stubbled through a few parts, but I made the effort and I didn't get annoyed and quit at the first sign of klumsiness. Which has been my tendency with workout videos in the past.
Over the weekend I plan to walk the dog, or at least play with the dog outside. I have grocery shopping to do. And I am also starting my 2 day detox on Saturday morning! I'm really looking forward to my WI on Monday, where my target weight will be 200.0 lbs. I would love to exceed that, but will be happy if I'm just able to meet it.
Yesterday a friend who is aware of my efforts at losing weight, called me skinny girl. I was speechless, no one has ever used those words to describe me in my life. NEVER! It made me realize just how big of a difference 14 pounds has made in my appearance and how I feel about myself. I'm not quite at the point where I'm comfortable moving down a dress size, mostly because of how tight my current size was before I started losing weight. I think in the next 10 lbs or so all the clothes that I've been hanging on to, but have avoided trying on will be pulled out. And much of what I am wearing now will be removed from my wardrobe.
I've been looking back over the last few days and remembering how I used to look. When I was 175 lbs I still thought I was unbelievably fat, but I felt a lot better about myself because I knew I'd lost 25 lbs. I knew I looked better, but I didn't appreciate how much better. I think of when I was in the 180's and the 190's and I hated it, I was so disgusted with myself and now I can't wait to see what my 190's and then 180's body looks like. Until my 12th grade year I had not been on a scale since I was in the 6th grade. So in all that time I have no idea what I weighed when, and I know my body image was very skewed. That makes it really tough for me to visualise what I will be like at 170, 160, 150 and so on, until I reach my goal. I do know one thing, I want lean and firm muscles. And not just lean and firm abs, although that one might be the biggest challenge. But lean and firm thighs, butt, and arms. I want that general flabby feeling to be exercised out of this body.
I have a huge pet peeve, it's this statement. "weight is just a number." Who came up with something so incredibly wish washy and unhelpful a statement as that? It's an excuse only! It basically says,"don't worry about your weight, feel good about yourself no matter how you look or how healthy you are." Now who would actually come out and say that? Because we all know that how we feel about ourselves is directly connected to what we percieve our appearance to be. How we feel is directly connected to our health, it's hard to be positive and enjoy life if you have no energy or are facing heart disease, diabetes, joint break down, etc. Weight has a direct coorellation to our health, our self-image and body-image. Not to say that making our weight ideal will resolve all health issues, or all self/body image issues. But I do believe, that for the most part it makes it easier. The other key ingredient in feeling good about ourselves and being healthy is having the ability to be real and honest with ourselves without beating ourselves up, or being deraugatory. My weight was a lot easier to face when I started being honest with myself, at that point I was released from shame and embarassment. And I could just accept myself wherever I am in my life.
Stats time!
Mini goal week 2
Lost: 2.8 lbs so far
Left to Goal: 22.8
9 weeks left
Ultimate goal week 8
Lost: 14 lbs
Left to Goal:56.8lbs
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Mini Goal Report 2
Hey everyone! This morning I finally got my keester out of bed and exercised. To prepare last night I added a bunch of workouts to the instant queue on netflix, then I watched the one I wanted to try start to finish without doing it. Crunch: cardio salsa. It looked really fun, and a few of the moves were very familiar. So I put it on this morning and I discovered that my coordination at 7:20am is lacking greatly! I switched to a yoga workout. Which I had done before, it is very beginner, and very relaxing. I enjoyed it, but I think I need a workout with a little more oomph. I'm looking forward to my netflix dvd getting here next week I have quite the assortment in both dvd queues. Here's a list, feel free to comment on any you may have tried.
DVD Queue
1. Jillian Michaels: 30 day shred- this is going to kick my butt! I'm looking forward to it though. Once I have mastered the whole thing I plan to send it back and move on. I will do that with all the workouts I like.
2.The Biggest Loser: Weight loss yoga
3. Leslie Sansone: Walk your belly fat
4.Dance Fitness for beginners-Joby Brava
5.Jillian Michaels for beginners: Backside- I'm looking forward to the frontside of this workout becoming available on netflix.
6.The Biggest Loser: The Workout: Cardio Max Weight Loss
7. The Biggest Loser: The workout: power walk
8. Jillian Michaels: Yoga Meltdown
9. Jillian Michaels: No more trouble zones
10. Yoga Booty Ballet: Complete discs 1-3 -This just plain looks like fun. I always wanted to learn ballet as a kid, I guess that's never really gone away.
11.Trainers Edge
12. The trainers edge: Fiesta Fitness Dance
13.Ballet Conditioning
My Instant queue is rather long, but it is mostly Crunch workouts, and a few misc yoga workouts.
I am doing the dvds because I really need to step up my game if I'm going to make it to my goal in less than 10 weeks. On Wednesday my weigh in was 202.8, down .4 from Monday. Which is great, but not enough to cut it. To be on track with my goal I need to weigh in at 200 this coming Monday. My new workouts are going to make a significant difference, and I'm looking forward to seeing results from it. The other thing I am doing is a 2 day detox on Saturday's and Sunday's every weekend until I reach my mini goal. I think I've mentioned this 2 day detox before, it's very simple and easy to follow. And here's the best part, effective!
I want to get to my ultimate goal as healthy and quickly as possible. Because the step after that, and maybe the hardest part will be learning to maintain my weight. Thats the real challenge I think, keeping this going throughout my life.
Here is my stat update
Week 2
Lost: 0.4 (as of Wednesday)
To Mini Goal: 23.8 lbs
Current weight: 202.8
Measurements
Old Bust: 45" - New Bust: 44" =Lost: 1"
Old Waist: 41" - New Waist: 38" = Lost 3"
Old Thigh: 26" - New Thigh: 25" =Lost 1"
Old Hips: 50 - New Hips: 47 = Lost 3"
For a total of 8" lost in 5 weeks.
I'm very excited about that, but I'm also ready to really step things up. Because the reality is, I've been lazy about my exercise. I think it was okay, because I took the last few weeks to really get my eating plan down, and be adjusted and used to it. I'm ready for another change, and more hard work!
DVD Queue
1. Jillian Michaels: 30 day shred- this is going to kick my butt! I'm looking forward to it though. Once I have mastered the whole thing I plan to send it back and move on. I will do that with all the workouts I like.
2.The Biggest Loser: Weight loss yoga
3. Leslie Sansone: Walk your belly fat
4.Dance Fitness for beginners-Joby Brava
5.Jillian Michaels for beginners: Backside- I'm looking forward to the frontside of this workout becoming available on netflix.
6.The Biggest Loser: The Workout: Cardio Max Weight Loss
7. The Biggest Loser: The workout: power walk
8. Jillian Michaels: Yoga Meltdown
9. Jillian Michaels: No more trouble zones
10. Yoga Booty Ballet: Complete discs 1-3 -This just plain looks like fun. I always wanted to learn ballet as a kid, I guess that's never really gone away.
11.Trainers Edge
12. The trainers edge: Fiesta Fitness Dance
13.Ballet Conditioning
My Instant queue is rather long, but it is mostly Crunch workouts, and a few misc yoga workouts.
I am doing the dvds because I really need to step up my game if I'm going to make it to my goal in less than 10 weeks. On Wednesday my weigh in was 202.8, down .4 from Monday. Which is great, but not enough to cut it. To be on track with my goal I need to weigh in at 200 this coming Monday. My new workouts are going to make a significant difference, and I'm looking forward to seeing results from it. The other thing I am doing is a 2 day detox on Saturday's and Sunday's every weekend until I reach my mini goal. I think I've mentioned this 2 day detox before, it's very simple and easy to follow. And here's the best part, effective!
I want to get to my ultimate goal as healthy and quickly as possible. Because the step after that, and maybe the hardest part will be learning to maintain my weight. Thats the real challenge I think, keeping this going throughout my life.
Here is my stat update
Week 2
Lost: 0.4 (as of Wednesday)
To Mini Goal: 23.8 lbs
Current weight: 202.8
Measurements
Old Bust: 45" - New Bust: 44" =Lost: 1"
Old Waist: 41" - New Waist: 38" = Lost 3"
Old Thigh: 26" - New Thigh: 25" =Lost 1"
Old Hips: 50 - New Hips: 47 = Lost 3"
For a total of 8" lost in 5 weeks.
I'm very excited about that, but I'm also ready to really step things up. Because the reality is, I've been lazy about my exercise. I think it was okay, because I took the last few weeks to really get my eating plan down, and be adjusted and used to it. I'm ready for another change, and more hard work!
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Anniversary
Today is a special day in my life. Firstly it is the my sister Michelle's birthday! I want to say a huge HAPPY BIRTHDAY to her, I miss her very much, we live way too far apart.
Second, Mar 22nd is the first day that my husband let me know how he felt about me. That was three years ago, after talking all night long. I wanted to get off the call, and let him go to sleep. He said,"No, I'll miss you too much." So much for us being "just friends" lol.
Thirdly, and most appropriately for this post, the one year anniversary since I set out on my weight loss journey. Wow! I realized that a little while ago, and it shocked me. At times it has felt like it dragged on and on, and I would never make any progress. But the time has also flown by. So much has happened in my life, and in my journey. At first I did my best to sift through the information about weight loss on the internet, what do the experts say? I put together the best program I could possibly manage by myself, and without guidance to know what was complete bunk.
I started out with a food journal, I counted my calories and measured my servings with gusto for several months. I exercised with enthusiasm, and I saw myself improve. I still ate things that weren't too good for me, I tried for the healthier alternative to really unhealthy food choices. I succeeded from March until the beginning of June. In June I hit a road block, I ran out of B.C. and started to not feel too well. It was also the one year anniversary of some very difficult trials in my life. I just really struggled, and essentially gave up many of the good habits I had started developing. I slowly gained back the weight I had lost.
Around September I started to put in more effort, I worked hard, but I just didn't quite manage it. I bounced around with the same 3-5 pounds and I just couldn't break through. I gave up yet again. Up until the middle on February I gained all the way back to 215. I was very upset, and very unhappy with how I felt and looked. To put it bluntly I felt so completely unattractive that I could hardly stand to get out of bed in the morning.
In December a friend shared their struggle with weight loss, and how they felt about it. They also shared what they were doing. They had replaced breakfast and lunch with a protein bar, then ate whatever they wanted and dinner, and on weekends. It was working. I decided to give it a shot, at first I lost a little maybe 3 pounds. Then I started gain, and fast! I just could not stop being starving, I mean so hungry I could eat a horse and chase the rider! My grandma used to say that lol.
In February I got the email from Tiffany, and she put my in touch with Jae. I am truely grateful for that event in my life. If I hadn't met Jae I really think I would have given up. I was having such a hard time losing even the smallest amount of weight. The program that Jae helped me get on, and is helping me follow has changed everything about this journey. It's especially changed the way I look at my body, and my health. And it has really changed the way I look at food.
You could say I've come full circle and then some! This time last year I was motivated, I was so determined and excited to change. I also thought that I would just make it work for me, and it would keep working for me, and I would never let myself quit or slip up. Boy, was I wrong. But I'm definitely stronger for the experience, the frustration, the successes, and the disappointments. I know this will be an up and down road, there will be plenty of bumps. What matters the most is how I handle the bumps. Do I reach for a spoon and bucket of ice cream, or do I continue with my routine. The healthy foods that I enjoy.
The number one tip I read about and thought was complete idiocy that I use now. Drink more water. I drink before I eat, I drink water while eating, I drink water after I eat. I drink water when I feel bored, and normally would have snacked. Only after I drink more water, and still feel hungry do I get a snack. And then I make every effort to stay within my daily serving plan. I LOVE carrots lol, it's my favorite snack food.
I'm beginning to get compliments about the weight I have lost. My sister in law saw me the other day, and she said,"Wow, you've lost a lot of weight!" Wow that made me feel great! Everyone else in my life I see so often that it's harder to notice.
So Cheers to this last year and all I've learned!
Second, Mar 22nd is the first day that my husband let me know how he felt about me. That was three years ago, after talking all night long. I wanted to get off the call, and let him go to sleep. He said,"No, I'll miss you too much." So much for us being "just friends" lol.
Thirdly, and most appropriately for this post, the one year anniversary since I set out on my weight loss journey. Wow! I realized that a little while ago, and it shocked me. At times it has felt like it dragged on and on, and I would never make any progress. But the time has also flown by. So much has happened in my life, and in my journey. At first I did my best to sift through the information about weight loss on the internet, what do the experts say? I put together the best program I could possibly manage by myself, and without guidance to know what was complete bunk.
I started out with a food journal, I counted my calories and measured my servings with gusto for several months. I exercised with enthusiasm, and I saw myself improve. I still ate things that weren't too good for me, I tried for the healthier alternative to really unhealthy food choices. I succeeded from March until the beginning of June. In June I hit a road block, I ran out of B.C. and started to not feel too well. It was also the one year anniversary of some very difficult trials in my life. I just really struggled, and essentially gave up many of the good habits I had started developing. I slowly gained back the weight I had lost.
Around September I started to put in more effort, I worked hard, but I just didn't quite manage it. I bounced around with the same 3-5 pounds and I just couldn't break through. I gave up yet again. Up until the middle on February I gained all the way back to 215. I was very upset, and very unhappy with how I felt and looked. To put it bluntly I felt so completely unattractive that I could hardly stand to get out of bed in the morning.
In December a friend shared their struggle with weight loss, and how they felt about it. They also shared what they were doing. They had replaced breakfast and lunch with a protein bar, then ate whatever they wanted and dinner, and on weekends. It was working. I decided to give it a shot, at first I lost a little maybe 3 pounds. Then I started gain, and fast! I just could not stop being starving, I mean so hungry I could eat a horse and chase the rider! My grandma used to say that lol.
In February I got the email from Tiffany, and she put my in touch with Jae. I am truely grateful for that event in my life. If I hadn't met Jae I really think I would have given up. I was having such a hard time losing even the smallest amount of weight. The program that Jae helped me get on, and is helping me follow has changed everything about this journey. It's especially changed the way I look at my body, and my health. And it has really changed the way I look at food.
You could say I've come full circle and then some! This time last year I was motivated, I was so determined and excited to change. I also thought that I would just make it work for me, and it would keep working for me, and I would never let myself quit or slip up. Boy, was I wrong. But I'm definitely stronger for the experience, the frustration, the successes, and the disappointments. I know this will be an up and down road, there will be plenty of bumps. What matters the most is how I handle the bumps. Do I reach for a spoon and bucket of ice cream, or do I continue with my routine. The healthy foods that I enjoy.
The number one tip I read about and thought was complete idiocy that I use now. Drink more water. I drink before I eat, I drink water while eating, I drink water after I eat. I drink water when I feel bored, and normally would have snacked. Only after I drink more water, and still feel hungry do I get a snack. And then I make every effort to stay within my daily serving plan. I LOVE carrots lol, it's my favorite snack food.
I'm beginning to get compliments about the weight I have lost. My sister in law saw me the other day, and she said,"Wow, you've lost a lot of weight!" Wow that made me feel great! Everyone else in my life I see so often that it's harder to notice.
So Cheers to this last year and all I've learned!
Monday, March 14, 2011
10+
Whoo Hooo! Yippee! 11.2 pounds down!
This last week was rough, my hubby and I were helping a friend until 9pm tues-thurs. And out of the goodness of their hearts they took us out for dinner. Unfortunately, I learned just how hard it is to be on my program and eat out! I found that even though the food was delicious, I didn't like not knowing what was in my food, or how it was prepared. That was a serious challenge for me, but I did my best to eat healthy and avoid the buffet of desserts.
I feel like I had a lot of successes. On Tuesday we went to Rosie's a mexican place, where the put baskets of tortilla chips and salsa on the table before your meal arrives. I can't eat chips on my program, I did not have a single bite. And when I ordered my fajita salad I requested the remove the tortilla crisps altogether, and bring me the toppings on the side. The only things I should have done and didn't was ask for no sour cream, and no olives. I do not like olives! In the end it was delicious!
Wednesday we went to Ryan's buffet, it was okay. I found myself starving, and just walking around trying to figure out what I could have. I didn't want another salad. I avoided the fried chicken, dishes laden with cheese, and everything drenched in grease. However I probably ate a little too much anyway.
Thursday we went to McCalister's, OH WOW so good! I had a bowl of chilli, and half a Grilled Buffalo Chicken salad! Delicious! That I think was just fine, I even asked for lite ranch instead of bleu cheese dressing. However I tried some of my hubby's roast beef and gravy(it was on a sandwich but I did not eat the bread). I had 3 bites and realized it was crazy salty for me. I did not ask for a bite of the Cheesecake my hubby was finishing! That was hard!
Friday was a difficult day, I found out my Dad broke his arm and might need surgery. I had many worries involved with that, and I don't think I was ever as home sick as I was this weekend. I definitely ate too much starch in the form of fat free ice cream.
Saturday my Mother-in-law took us to 88 buffet, I did my very best to avoid anything with breading, or that was deep fried. I had a lot of veggies and a lot of fruit. Once again I avoided the desserts! Although once again I had too much starch in the form of the rest of the fat free ice cream. UGH I was not happy with myself.
Sunday I was good. I ate all at home. For breakfast I had apple sauce, then I had my recipe of grilled chicken, black beans, veggies, and brown rice, topped with a little roasted red pepper vinigarette dressing. I had 1 cup of no sugar added cranberry/raspberry juice for the rest of my fruits. The for dinner we had chicken wings (baked) and I had more mix veggies and brown rice. I also drank a ton of water.
I had a nasty migraine last night, the first real headache I have had since starting on this program. It really knocked me down, the pain was so bad I couldn't even lay my head on my pillow. In fact I am still dealing with it, by keeping up my tylenol every 4 hours, otherwise it comes back.
But inspite of my disaster week my weigh in's went like this.
Monday down 0.8 for 206.4lb
Wednesday down 0.2 for 206.2 lb
Friday Up 0.8 for 207lb
This Monday down 2.4 for 204.6 lbs!
Stats
Lost last week: 1.6 lbs
Total lost: 11.2 lbs
To go: 59.6lbs!
This last week was rough, my hubby and I were helping a friend until 9pm tues-thurs. And out of the goodness of their hearts they took us out for dinner. Unfortunately, I learned just how hard it is to be on my program and eat out! I found that even though the food was delicious, I didn't like not knowing what was in my food, or how it was prepared. That was a serious challenge for me, but I did my best to eat healthy and avoid the buffet of desserts.
I feel like I had a lot of successes. On Tuesday we went to Rosie's a mexican place, where the put baskets of tortilla chips and salsa on the table before your meal arrives. I can't eat chips on my program, I did not have a single bite. And when I ordered my fajita salad I requested the remove the tortilla crisps altogether, and bring me the toppings on the side. The only things I should have done and didn't was ask for no sour cream, and no olives. I do not like olives! In the end it was delicious!
Wednesday we went to Ryan's buffet, it was okay. I found myself starving, and just walking around trying to figure out what I could have. I didn't want another salad. I avoided the fried chicken, dishes laden with cheese, and everything drenched in grease. However I probably ate a little too much anyway.
Thursday we went to McCalister's, OH WOW so good! I had a bowl of chilli, and half a Grilled Buffalo Chicken salad! Delicious! That I think was just fine, I even asked for lite ranch instead of bleu cheese dressing. However I tried some of my hubby's roast beef and gravy(it was on a sandwich but I did not eat the bread). I had 3 bites and realized it was crazy salty for me. I did not ask for a bite of the Cheesecake my hubby was finishing! That was hard!
Friday was a difficult day, I found out my Dad broke his arm and might need surgery. I had many worries involved with that, and I don't think I was ever as home sick as I was this weekend. I definitely ate too much starch in the form of fat free ice cream.
Saturday my Mother-in-law took us to 88 buffet, I did my very best to avoid anything with breading, or that was deep fried. I had a lot of veggies and a lot of fruit. Once again I avoided the desserts! Although once again I had too much starch in the form of the rest of the fat free ice cream. UGH I was not happy with myself.
Sunday I was good. I ate all at home. For breakfast I had apple sauce, then I had my recipe of grilled chicken, black beans, veggies, and brown rice, topped with a little roasted red pepper vinigarette dressing. I had 1 cup of no sugar added cranberry/raspberry juice for the rest of my fruits. The for dinner we had chicken wings (baked) and I had more mix veggies and brown rice. I also drank a ton of water.
I had a nasty migraine last night, the first real headache I have had since starting on this program. It really knocked me down, the pain was so bad I couldn't even lay my head on my pillow. In fact I am still dealing with it, by keeping up my tylenol every 4 hours, otherwise it comes back.
But inspite of my disaster week my weigh in's went like this.
Monday down 0.8 for 206.4lb
Wednesday down 0.2 for 206.2 lb
Friday Up 0.8 for 207lb
This Monday down 2.4 for 204.6 lbs!
Stats
Lost last week: 1.6 lbs
Total lost: 11.2 lbs
To go: 59.6lbs!
Monday, February 14, 2011
Weigh In- Feb 14
After only 4 days with my weightloss consultant, I am down 3 lbs!!!!!!!!! I'm so excited, I actually had a significant loss. Saturday & Sunday my detox went pretty well. I think I will be a little better prepared next time, but it was only two days so that wasn't a big deal.
I feel so much better about myself and what I am doing. I finally have the direction to know that I am making healthy choices, and doing what is best for my body. 145 LBS HERE I COME!
Stats:
This week loss: 3lbs
Total Loss: 4.8 lbs
To Goal: 66 lbs!
I feel so much better about myself and what I am doing. I finally have the direction to know that I am making healthy choices, and doing what is best for my body. 145 LBS HERE I COME!
Stats:
This week loss: 3lbs
Total Loss: 4.8 lbs
To Goal: 66 lbs!
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Reality check, goals, and progress!
Tonight I have a lot on my mind. I feel pumped, I've made progress right away. I have a new morning routine thats healthy and all about me, taking care of my body, and remembering that I am important too. I've felt great that in 3 weeks I am now getting up a full hour earlier than I was before, I am now exercising 20 min in the morning, I drink 64oz of water or more a day, and I'm enjoying healthy food.
However the other day I had a reality check, a real wake up call. I'm glad I had it nearly three weeks after I started new goals and recentered my attitude. It was rude, I got really angry, and somewhere hidden inside I was a little hurt too. A new neighbor eyed me as I was leaving our little chat at the mail boxes and she said "you havin' a baby er somethin'?" It took me a moment to recover from the shock, I said a very quiet no, and continued on my way. As time went on and I was preparing for dinner that evening I got more and more angry. I called my sister to vent, she agreed with my outrage, she's a great sister. I posted on facebook, on my status, and in my weightloss group. I got a lot of support and encouraging messages. That was all great, the support was amazing, and knowing there are so many women out there that know what it is like to be at the end of such rudeness and thoughtlessness.
Here is what I have learned. Reality check, my waist is 41", my hips 50". I'm carrying a whole lot of my weight in my middle, I always have. I lived my life in such a way that my body was neglected. I didn't give my body the tools it needed to function at an optimum level. Not enough exercise, not enough water, not enough high quality nutrition, too much junk food and empty calories, too much sitting around, or laying in bed. Too many excuses for not getting up and working out, something as simple as going for a walk. I always have an excuse, I'm too tired, I hurt too much, I don't have the time, there is too much cleaning to do, I don't feel like it. Gotta love that last one, I got lazy in coming up with excuses for being lazy. So my reality, it's my fault I look like I could be pregnant. It's my fault that I have a goal that involves losingsome 70 lbs. It's that woman's fault for being rude, but it's not her fault that my body looks such that someone could make the mistake.
So who should I really be mad at? Me? No. I say no because, while it is my fault, and my problem, that is not productive. It would likely only add to the difficulty of what I am working for. I have plans, and I so badly want this, I'm determined, and I'm committed. That to me says: "Things have changed". Something in my thinking changed, something in my attitude changed. I stopped just feeling sorry for myself, and actually sat down to devise the path I need to take to make my goals a reality. I've known what I needed to do for quite some time now. But I didn't WANT to. Why? I didn't want to give up my sleep. I know that sounds silly, but I'm a person who does not sleep well, in fact I never really have. I've gone to multiple doctors about my sleeping problems. I AM tired ALL the time to varying degrees. So that hour of sleep I have given up already is pretty precious. And the extra hour I am going to be giving up over the next 4 weeks is equally as precious. I know it will be hard, I know I will struggle. But I have realized that as I lose the weight the hours that I do sleep for will be worth more to me in the long run. Eventually the "tired all the time" will wear off. I will begin to have energy again. Maybe it will take 10 pounds, maybe it will take 20 pounds, maybe more. But when I get to that point where I can sleep for more than 2 hours at a time, it will be glorious!
Achieving my goals is a big motivator for me. Seeing my progress is also another big motivator, loss of inches and pounds. Slowly getting closer to a healthy BMI, and a slimmer me, priceless. But I know I will have bad days, rough weeks, and many challenges along the way. One of my big goals is to complete each of my 2 month goals through the whole year. To not miss any exercise days (unless very ill), to not miss a single day without my 64 oz of water. 1 year of that, I will be a new me! To get me through the rough times I have a rewards system. I get rewards at certain points in multiple categories. Inches lost, certain weights, certain BMI, percents of my goal completed (10, 25, 50, 75), and I'm thinking at the end of each of my 2 month goal sheets. So far I have completed everything on my current goal sheet. And in some things exceeded my own expectations! I have 1 rule, none of my rewards can be food. I think they will mostly be clothing. Maybe jewelry, or something else I want. I think the reward point I will reach soonest is my first inches lost goal which is 10-13 inches lost! I am at 7 inches lost. I can't wait until the next week I measure.
I plan to post each Friday to report on my completed goals for that week. This morning getting up at 7:30 was hard, really hard. I almost didn't do it, nearly fell back asleep in the bathroom. But I made it to the living room and my YourShape on the xbox kinect. It is definitely a challenging workout so far. I'm using the personal trainer, and I'm seeing improvements even over the last 4 days. I have better coordination to follow the trainer, and I went from 30 cals burned on my second day (first day didn't get through my profile and tutorials) to 52 cals burned today. I can't wait until I have a full 45 mins to exercise.
Oh, and a side note. The size 18P jeans I bought a few weeks ago are falling off me. I walked up the hill in front of our apartment several times this morning. I had to hang on to them. Too much movement and they just start sliding down. That is exciting to me! I need to get a belt of some kind because my size 16P will not yet fit me. I just might crochet myself a belt.
Well that is where my head is at tonight. Like I said a lot to think about, and a lot to be excited about too!
However the other day I had a reality check, a real wake up call. I'm glad I had it nearly three weeks after I started new goals and recentered my attitude. It was rude, I got really angry, and somewhere hidden inside I was a little hurt too. A new neighbor eyed me as I was leaving our little chat at the mail boxes and she said "you havin' a baby er somethin'?" It took me a moment to recover from the shock, I said a very quiet no, and continued on my way. As time went on and I was preparing for dinner that evening I got more and more angry. I called my sister to vent, she agreed with my outrage, she's a great sister. I posted on facebook, on my status, and in my weightloss group. I got a lot of support and encouraging messages. That was all great, the support was amazing, and knowing there are so many women out there that know what it is like to be at the end of such rudeness and thoughtlessness.
Here is what I have learned. Reality check, my waist is 41", my hips 50". I'm carrying a whole lot of my weight in my middle, I always have. I lived my life in such a way that my body was neglected. I didn't give my body the tools it needed to function at an optimum level. Not enough exercise, not enough water, not enough high quality nutrition, too much junk food and empty calories, too much sitting around, or laying in bed. Too many excuses for not getting up and working out, something as simple as going for a walk. I always have an excuse, I'm too tired, I hurt too much, I don't have the time, there is too much cleaning to do, I don't feel like it. Gotta love that last one, I got lazy in coming up with excuses for being lazy. So my reality, it's my fault I look like I could be pregnant. It's my fault that I have a goal that involves losingsome 70 lbs. It's that woman's fault for being rude, but it's not her fault that my body looks such that someone could make the mistake.
So who should I really be mad at? Me? No. I say no because, while it is my fault, and my problem, that is not productive. It would likely only add to the difficulty of what I am working for. I have plans, and I so badly want this, I'm determined, and I'm committed. That to me says: "Things have changed". Something in my thinking changed, something in my attitude changed. I stopped just feeling sorry for myself, and actually sat down to devise the path I need to take to make my goals a reality. I've known what I needed to do for quite some time now. But I didn't WANT to. Why? I didn't want to give up my sleep. I know that sounds silly, but I'm a person who does not sleep well, in fact I never really have. I've gone to multiple doctors about my sleeping problems. I AM tired ALL the time to varying degrees. So that hour of sleep I have given up already is pretty precious. And the extra hour I am going to be giving up over the next 4 weeks is equally as precious. I know it will be hard, I know I will struggle. But I have realized that as I lose the weight the hours that I do sleep for will be worth more to me in the long run. Eventually the "tired all the time" will wear off. I will begin to have energy again. Maybe it will take 10 pounds, maybe it will take 20 pounds, maybe more. But when I get to that point where I can sleep for more than 2 hours at a time, it will be glorious!
Achieving my goals is a big motivator for me. Seeing my progress is also another big motivator, loss of inches and pounds. Slowly getting closer to a healthy BMI, and a slimmer me, priceless. But I know I will have bad days, rough weeks, and many challenges along the way. One of my big goals is to complete each of my 2 month goals through the whole year. To not miss any exercise days (unless very ill), to not miss a single day without my 64 oz of water. 1 year of that, I will be a new me! To get me through the rough times I have a rewards system. I get rewards at certain points in multiple categories. Inches lost, certain weights, certain BMI, percents of my goal completed (10, 25, 50, 75), and I'm thinking at the end of each of my 2 month goal sheets. So far I have completed everything on my current goal sheet. And in some things exceeded my own expectations! I have 1 rule, none of my rewards can be food. I think they will mostly be clothing. Maybe jewelry, or something else I want. I think the reward point I will reach soonest is my first inches lost goal which is 10-13 inches lost! I am at 7 inches lost. I can't wait until the next week I measure.
I plan to post each Friday to report on my completed goals for that week. This morning getting up at 7:30 was hard, really hard. I almost didn't do it, nearly fell back asleep in the bathroom. But I made it to the living room and my YourShape on the xbox kinect. It is definitely a challenging workout so far. I'm using the personal trainer, and I'm seeing improvements even over the last 4 days. I have better coordination to follow the trainer, and I went from 30 cals burned on my second day (first day didn't get through my profile and tutorials) to 52 cals burned today. I can't wait until I have a full 45 mins to exercise.
Oh, and a side note. The size 18P jeans I bought a few weeks ago are falling off me. I walked up the hill in front of our apartment several times this morning. I had to hang on to them. Too much movement and they just start sliding down. That is exciting to me! I need to get a belt of some kind because my size 16P will not yet fit me. I just might crochet myself a belt.
Well that is where my head is at tonight. Like I said a lot to think about, and a lot to be excited about too!
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